Ah Goh

Listening to a song call "linger" by the cranberries.


it really give a strong feeling.
Multiple type of feeling.
-to love
-heartbroken
-emo
-a sense of success in achieving everything in my life

Just now almost 9pm only go back home.
Take away a burger at the street near LRT straight go back home.

Jay chow-mine mine.....
so nice...
i still like jay chow's songs.

Today, some people try to persuade me to do something i don't prefer.
is really pointless to force people, especially people like me.

I always do something for a reason and that reason definitely will not be "follow lo". Unless i'm on a situation where i don't have a sense of direction which currently i'm not.

Sometimes, i really don't know what is my heart thinking.
sometimes, i really so into you.
sometimes, i'm not at all.
is this a sign of desperation?
maybe i am.

when i'm in a confusion or desperation, i don't make a choice/hold on.
I'm sorry if i had really mislead-ed you.
but all i can say is, what i said is true.
and, i always choose my word carefully.
Hope u can understand and forgive me.

I'm not saying i'm giving up or whatsoever.
is just that i'm unsure.
the courage is gone.
i'm a passive person already.

No matter what, i still enjoy my life.
stop talking about love for god sake.

lets write something else.
study?
ACCA? CIMA?
1 year ago i will say definitely CIMA.
Now? should be CIMA.
as time goes by, things will change, as environment is changed, is eventually change our personality slowly.
After a serious thought of it, if i were to go accounting line, CIMA la...
but i still have the interest in teaching in uni, and might as well as get a master while teaching in uni.
see how things goes.

Worked half year already.
already get half month bonus. haven't hunt for another job yet. no time to do so as well. let me learned all the stuff 1st which i still haven't achieve it.

Might gonna change the car soon as my house gonna have a spare car.
but honestly, i like my kancil.
is a really nice car.
is been with me all the up and down time.
those happniess, those sadness, crying in the car alone.
fetched countless of people and of coz indirectly helped them xD
The kancil really been with me all the time.
really got a bit of hard feeling if i were to change the car.
remembering the moment of fetching the girls u fall in love before.
the feeling is really.... the happy moment in the past.
what's done is done.
is really strange, although u know u really let go, somehow, when u think abck those happy moment, u really still feel the happiness of it even u really get hurt so badly. and honestly speaking here, i am. Haha...
the feeling of sacrificing to see someone u love happy, no matter how much u suffered, u will still smile when she smile. Silly, but i like to do that.

Yes, i keep digging back the old news, but hi, i'm bored here, when u bored, u will think, when u think, u think back the old time when u bored and think back the happy time u had, especially in home, nothing to do.
I'm just writing what i'm thinking and what i'm feeling.

Now???? a free man. Haha... Nothing worry, just worry I will foreveralone.jpg only. Hahaha.... i still remember my mum's "son, then are you gonna marry another girl?"

Current life so far so good, couldn't say is awesome, but is good.
don't have decent pay job, but at least sufficient to use.
don't have a decent job, but at least i learn something and get pressured.
don't have a nice car, but at least got kancil, can fetch a lot of people. xD
don't have a good look, but at least my skin is very fair. still gain attention LOL
don't have a great personality to chase girl, but hi, I am who I am. Love me for who I am, not because I'm being someone else or to be someone else.
got friends.
good friend don't have much, at least, some a group of trusted friends.

although don't give appraisal to myself, sometimes, i do like now.
sometimes, i might seems to be strange person, i'm not. I know who I am. I know what I want, I know what I want to do (most of time). I don't simply follow.
I need correct facts.
I don't mind sacrifice as long as it able to help someone.
always tell yourself, before expecting people to help you, you must help others 1st.
don't let money ruin your life.
u want money to flow into you, 1st, learn how to let money flow out from you.
i always belanja friends, not i'm rich, but I'm willing to let go.
waste few ringgit (3 to 10 la,acceptable range to me as i don't earn much =)) to give someone happiness, no harm right? help you friends! (good friends that know u well and long enough).
Sometimes, i feel we are too selfish already in this society. Yes, be calculative, can't afford to belanja, but sometimes, we have the tendency to "use" (yes, USE) friend to gain personal benefit WITHOUT appreciating or HELPING BACK.
so always be grateful. be helpful, and of coz beware of scam as well.

I don't like showing off. Hate people who have thick face.
just be yourself, don't need to make yourself to be someone that not u wanted to be.

just like my Facebook profile there said, take time to know me =)

Good night. Im very tired of typing with this 10 inches screen.