Ah Goh

long time didn't update my blog, here i am, writing blog about my life.
sometimes i really curious who is really reading my blog, if any.

work for 2 weeks already. how to describe? hm.... ok lo. normal lo.. just work.
am i tired? who don't get exhausted for working?
environment good? quite.
challenging? not really, but yes for freshie like me xD
learning? yup.

2 weeks in KL, is not the same as previously, but expected. now working guy, not student anymore. Trying to adapt my new environment.

I still keep thinking, did I make the right choice of living alone in a room. Quite boring, especially all the housemates always missing in the house. Think of finding another roommate to come in, but scare later he can't tahan my "music", haha....
plus long time don't have a roommate liao, scare don't get use to it.

My feeling? hm... complicated. u know. everything i write blog, most probably i dam happy or i'm emo, and i'm emo, listening back all the sad songs.

i don't want another dejavu anymore, i really don't want. keep all the fake hope away. I don't want it. Is been a year and a half of single life.
how to describe it? Am i desperate? Yes I am. Honestly, all this long, although i don't have any feel for the ex, but somehow why those memories will come across my mind? meet countless girls, tried to chase some of them, but again, i don't want another dejavu. Why ah? somehow all the girls i'm interested got bf ger le?
Getting tired of it. sometimes, my mum's "u don't want have marriage already?" will pop up in mind, doubting will i ever get marry a woman. I don't want to be single forever.

haiz... trying my best enjoy my life. yes i enjoy my life, somehow, that feeling will come. feeling of loneliness. feeling of without love. i don't think i have any true friend already. maybe got one, still in kampar. Just missing one thing only.