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How many shots you can take? ^^

2nd post of the day. Really a bored day. Alone in the house. So lonely. Just now went out Khakabo with ah zheng them for the entire afternoon. Now at home, raining, nobody at house, no sound at all except my speaker and the rain.

Anywhere, plan to do my tutorial already. Is time to get back my ordinary hardworking way. This semester must score as much A as possible. Is hard, but achievable. One more, no C. Must just B or A.

I need get at least 3.0 CGPA, but better around 3.5

My heart really mess up already. I'm thinking of you.

Still at Kampar. Haiz. Nothing to do. Don't want to go back home coz no mood to go back. I will just emo in home, so better just stay at kampar.

Shocked. Yesterday after doing my research. I really shocked. I can't believe these things will happen.

I was thinking to give it another try, but now,..... I don't want to say about it anymore.

I really need time. I need to hang out with others to erase my memories.

Back to Kampar, the strangest things is I play really less game. Didn't even open my online game. Maybe today will since 4/5 of my housemates didn't go back. The line will be good, but now is not. Don't know why.

It strange that once i received the sms, I quickly forward to she and her gang, not even a single of my classmate until now.

For yr info, there is a quick link to yr facebook and blog in my browser. hahaha... ^^

Back to Kampar already. Starting to boring again. Emo-ing to be honest. Lonely. The feel is not the same anymore. Just now listen the song we use to listen together non-stop. Tears was fallen. Not because of you, because of the song, and it remind me how I was previously. Now listening to gary's song, as usual the two songs i keep listening.

Tomorrow going to school 9a.m. to check out the timetable. Don't know to join which group yet. with she? might not be due to different timetable we have, we shall know later tomorrow.

Now watching 爱我还是他. It remind me how many hundred times i listen previously. It remind me the playlist full of sad songs. I was really sad, but I insist keep going.
It already the past, my pc already format already. Its gone. Not that i purposely do it but I have to. Still remember the song by Blue-breath easy,你到底爱谁,爱到最后一秒也不委曲, 无辜. These were the song i keep listen all days long from morning until i sleep, it still keep playing. But my favorite that time was 爱我还是他. I love to listen the last sentences, because it was so true.

I'm doing nothing except listen song watching music video.

It really so different already. I will change, I'm changing my life into a better life.

Today went to Yik Fong with leonard to get our salary.
Got my cash already. So far haven't spend yet. When new semester open will decide how I gonna spend it. Though of coloring my hair (to in line with my near changing life). Not sure of coloring yet, but i think i gonna cut my hair, my hair now look like a bunch of grass. B4 i go yik fong. I heard a old song by robbie williams-feel
Really nice.


Really love it.
I just want to feel, a real love.

Finish pc fair job yesterday.
I was so happy yesterday finally i finish my job, coz i hate selling cheap stuff.
It make me like cheating someone.
After finish the job, it was already around 11.30p.m.
Then we go celebrate mun joon bday at station 1.



Then when I go back, have a good chat with she, but realize "she" deleted me from her friend list in facebook. I was shocked! Send messages to her ask her why, still haven't reply and haven't open her phone yet, seems like she want to total block me. Tell me don't leave the T17, but now she doing this, really a double standard.
But thx to she, I can say i still happy. Hehe...hahaha... ^^
Today wake up around 9a.m.
Don't know what to do, play games.
Haven't bath yet even now almost noon already.
I'm really clueless now.
I need someone.
I want to be alone but not alone all the time, I need some space for myself but not entirely, just need a little space for alone only. I always need someone at my side and i'm needing it. I'm so alone in my heart. Feel life is not meaning when my heart is empty.
Don't know what to do.
Don't know which direction to go.
I really need someone.
In the meant time, playing game is best temporary cure for me.
So tata..

Is 2010 le.
Today went to work, 1st time working in pc fair in ipoh.
It was my 1st time so i was very blur, so does other newcomers too.
work from 12 till 6pm today, next 3 days will be 10 till 10 ger lo. SO not so free to facebooking and msn.
When other ask me how old i am? my friend say 16.
Suddenly it remind me I'm really getting old already. I still feel like i'm 17/18 years old. The funny part is everyone also believe i'm 16. @@. Is my look that young?
This year going to 21 already. Old already. I know i changed already. I just hope these changes can lead me into a better life in future. I don't want to suffer.
Still got 1 and half year as a student.
Really need to appreciate it.
That why i also didn't work much already.
I really don't want to work. So lazy. But i say i do it so i will finish my job.
I'm still searching the one i love and the one who love me.
Where are you?

Today finally can smile le when playing Fifa2010. Can smile chatting with friends, can smile even talking to her too.
Is a good sign. I want to move forward.
I want to socialize to everyone.
I been very active in Facebook already.
Find old friends and new friends from Ipoh to Australia. Haha...
They say love can develop as time goes by if we have the passion and make the right move. I will about to find out.
I just google search you already.
Hahaha...
Can't believe I found yr blog. HAHAHAHA....
Tomorrow read everything.
hehe..
Anywhere good nite.

I don't know what to say already.
I know i should let go, but i just can't do it.
I never had that strong feeling before.
I scare it will gone forever and it never reoccur again.
I really don't know do what.
I was angry, i accused her.
It was my fault to simply accuse someone without think probably.
I was angry, emo, disappointed.
I'm not now.
Its over.
Just wait and see.
What come around goes around.
I will not look backward already
I will look forward.
I will try, I'm trying.