Ah Goh

Time pass so fast. I'm gonna be 20 year old already this August. I still feel that I'm somewhere around 18 year old. However, i need to admit I'm not that young anymore.

After finishing Secondary school, I don't have hope, I don't have dream, I don't know what path I need to choose. Even think of working already, don't want to study any longer. Never predict that i will be a diploma holder, never predict that I will be enrolling in a Degree program. Most of all, never predict that I will be at Kampar studying. I myself also felt that I'm not the same in the past already, I'm totally changed already and thank god I changed. However, something never change before, is the music that i listen, all the songs from 2 years ago, I'm still listening it. What really happen to me????

I'm still remember the first time i arguing my mum 2 years ago about the issue going to KL study TARC. First, is was about filling up the form, then, start arguing, then start scolding and screaming. Finally, it end up we both crying. That was the first time and hopefully the only time I scold my mum. My mum love me and I love my mum. During that time, my family can say to have financial difficulty. Even though she didn't say is about money issue, I know is about money issue, but i keep insist to go KL study because I want to run away from home as far as possible. The reason is during that time, I don't like my home, lot of unhappiness. After that incident, I'm starting to have a dignity, I want to prove to my parent that I never make the wrong decision.

First time reach KL to start studying(previously also got go KL for vacation purpose), I was staying in with my oldest brother at Melati Utama PV5, A-13-13. To be honest, even though the environment is nice, things didn't go very well with my brother, i still remember for one occasion i almost think of moving out after he scolding me for some reason which is beyond my control. I still remember those days in Melati utama, beside my roommate issue, other things was quite good. I still remember there is a Christian group call MCMC. I do have a lot of fun with them, those memories will never erased from my brain. I meet a lots of friends at there. Lots of enjoyable memory with them too. In my photo file in my computer, the most pictures folder is my MCMC folder.

Then the first time having college examination, I still remember i was freaking scary because it was a english language paper. During that time, my english was dam weak, i was so scare that i even think of failing the paper. Beside that paper, i never ever think of failing any subject already. When the result come out, i was also shock to see a such a good result beside my english language paper which i just manage to get a Pass. From that moment, I starting to have belief in myself. I will always think of "I can do it". Eventually, since then from that moment, I always have confidence in myself and i manage to get flying color in my diploma.

I still remember it was the year 2008, March I start driving my mum's car, Kancil. During that time, i was dam happy, after taking bus for almost a year, finally have a car to drive. Driving car in KL also change my life a lot. For once i was so blur that i never know any KL road, but now at least i know how to go some places, i don't dare to say all because KL is so big that i don't think much people can know all the road. Because i have the car, i manage to go a lot of places. Even though Kancil is the cheapest car around, until today, i still quite okay with it because it got lot of memories with me. I still remember Kok Chun, Aaron, Zheng, Joshua, Khai Ming, Wei Lun, Cheng Fu, Mathu and me always go out together, go Hang gai, play pool, da gai, yamcha, vacation and also clubbing too. Haha.... Sometimes i might not happy with them for some reason, but still it was a good gang of friends. Lots of fun. Must thank to them, without them, I miss a lot of things.

I also want to mention about my genting Kelang roommate, jason How. He is a good roommate. I still remember the time we always play dota together every night. Every night, when 10p.m. - 11p.m. reached, automatically we will say dota time. I still remember sometime his girlfriend from Batu Pahat will take bus come to KL find him and sleep with him too in the room where I also sleeping too. Feel so funny, a pair of lover can sleep together with a guy inside the room. For once, i remember one night around 10p.m., when i was checking what movie is showing in cinema, he ask me what got what movie is showing on cinema, i say Yes!man!, then when he say lets go, then we straight away go to cinema watch the movie with his girlfriend too. Beside his GF, I still got always hang out with his gang too. They are also a good gang of friends where they always very outgoing too. All pro in computer, must really thanks to my roommate who always help me format my computer and install useful utilities programs for my computer. Those life is so good. Got happiness with my course-mates, when come back home got happiness with roommates and his friends because we also got play dota together with his gang of friends.

I also meet a gang of friends who always play badminton in Wangsa Maju, KLRC. They all quite old already compare to me because all of them are graduated and working, some even already married. Every Sunday they will always book 1 or 2 courts and 6 to 14 people will always be there to play badminton. Have a lot of fun with them. And because of this, I got my only sole forward email supplier. Until now, even I'm not at KL any longer, they still forward email to me and inform me the time and court. Really a good badminton Kaki. I will go back one day and find them back.

Not least, i also have to mention my classmate. Even though i don't talk much with classmates. I do need to thank to my classmate who celebrate my birthday. I do appreciate it. Even i didn't join most of the activities, i know you all are also outgoing friends, especially the cheranting trip, u all do organize it very well. I do remember i had open attack on group 5 in this blog. If u do manage to read it, well, I'm really sorry if it hurt you, especially Lam Kah leong. Really do sorry. Sometimes some people like me do let their evil angry mind take over them.

Lastly, i also want to mention about a friend call CK(until today i only know he call CK, do not know his full name). He also got bring me out play too and meet his gang of friends. A Kbox Kaki friends. Actually he also the first person who take me out to hang gai. We meeet in badminton society, and eventually found out that we live in the same block(during that time is 2007, i moved to genting kelang 2008). We do share a lot of things together, especially things relates to relationship. We also got participate badminton competition, but i failed him. Now i don't know what happen to him, I never find him lately. I will find him soon.

This is a summary of my college life as i can't define every moment happen in my college life as there is too much events happened. So, to be honest to myself, I do have a good college life, meets lots of lots of lots of lots of friends, have lots of fun, learn a lot of things, know a lot of things.

But that is the past already, have to be always focus the future. I been writing this blog for 2 hours already and i keep listening the same song 吴克群-爱太痛 for 2 hours already. coz i feel the lyrics in this song really singing the same situation I'm having.I do feel really painful.