Ah Goh

Is Sunday again. Time goes so fast. A bind of an eyes is already gonna finish 1 semester. Hard to settle myself in Kampar, but now everything seems to be looking fine already. All coursework finish already, didn't fail or get any high score, just moderate and acceptable, which is far away from my 1st honor degree. Never mind, still got final exam, hopefully i can done pretty well in my final exam.

Yesterday night i saw a very old movie call "There Will Be Blood". Although it quite old, but it quite interesting to see and meaningful. What you done to others in the pass, will haunt you back in the future. Desperation will lead you too anger, anger will lead you to self-destruction. If someone hate you from the beginning or use you as a tool, is meaningless to stay on with them any longer. Lots of moral in this movie, but in the end, the devil won. He killed all the people he say he will kill them.

I done something quite stupid, I don't know she will know or not, but i think she will never know the answer.

My birthday gone already, 20 year old officially. Celebrate my birthday with classmates, a very thank you to all my classmate who have such a nice heart to sacrifice their time to celebrate denise, feng and my birthday. It was a wild celebration as somebody bring whisky to drink in pizza hut, somebody keep screaming so loud until we can heard other people from other table shouting to us to keep us silence.

Anywhere, it just another day. Gonna keep living my life.

another year went on, is my 20th birthday tomorrow.
I'm getting older, so does my friends, very long time didn't see all my old friends liao. Miss my old time during secondary school. Today meet some of my formal secondary school classmate. Everyone had changed, so does me.
One things different for this birthday is that my wish gonna difference from prior years already. Suddenly feel that I'm a very cold person, i don't show feeling, how to change my cold blood heart? i need someone give me warm, I don't want this cold heart already.

I think too much already just now.

suddenly my feeling is so down, the way she saying about it, and the things happen that night, the things she tell me last night, if would be a lie IF anything happen.

Something had happen. I don't know what to say, but just now(last night) I keep dreaming it what had happen yesterday night until I can't sleep any longer. That's why I here writing blog in the morning. Some part of me feel happy, but some part of me feel bad. It quite strange.I don't know what to say. Things I can say is that when I went back home, I only realize that my mouth very smelly and some part of my body feel very pain plus I got a scratch in my head.

http://niamah.blogspot.com/2009/08/now-what.html
http://themalaysianinsider.com/index.php/malaysia/34686-umno-youth-leaders-to-get-military-style-training
This is really getting out of hand.
That's the headline. Stupid isn't it? At a time like this in Malaysian politics they make an announcement like that? Who's their spin doctor? I mean even if you have been sleeping the last 52 years and woke up to read that in the Bernama news release you'd be a little miffed. Wouldn't you?

http://khookaypeng.blogspot.com/2009/08/big-ideas-small-minds.html

I find this video quite special, so I post it here.

I love it.


Do you know what's worth fighting for?
When it's not worth dying for?
Does it take your breath away
And you feel yourself suffocating?

Does the pain weigh out the pride?
And you look for a place to hide?
Did someone break your heart inside?
You're in ruins

One, 21 guns
Lay down your arms, give up the fight
One, 21 guns
Throw up your arms into the sky, you and I

When you're at the end of the road
And you lost all sense of control
And your thoughts have taken their toll
When your mind breaks the spirit of your soul

Your faith walks on broken glass
And the hangover doesn't pass
Nothing's ever built to last
You're in ruins

One, 21 guns
Lay down your arms, give up the fight
One, 21 guns
Throw up your arms into the sky, you and I

Did you try to live on your own
When you burned down the house and home?
Did you stand too close to the fire
Like a liar looking for forgiveness from a stone?

When it's time to live and let die
And you can't get another try
Something inside this heart has died
You're in ruins

One, 21 guns
Lay down your arms, give up the fight
One, 21 guns
Throw up your arms into the sky

One, 21 guns
Lay down your arms, give up the fight
One, 21 guns
Throw up your arms into the sky, you and I