Ah Goh

lately i been sleep till very very late only wake up.
these few days i wake up around 12noon, maybe i can't get to sleep at night
Just now my parent arguing, shouting because of the delay of the lunch.zzz.
Just keep silent.
today is weekdays. Don't know what to do, 3 weeks long holidays. So long.
To be honest, I been very down lately, i haven't smile at all except playing game and watch football. I'm sorry to make u discomfort. All i want to do to make you come back to me. I'm sorry. So sorry. gtg. going out jusco with father.
CORRECTION: TESCO, NOT JUSCO.

Just come back from tesco.
i need to regain back my normal sense. I feel i have totally loss already.Keep emo non stop from morning till i sleep.

Come back from KL, so tired bcoz of lack of sleep for 3 days in KL. Tiring walking everywhere, at least i got shop some cheap goods.
I very happy to see her during the 1st day even just for few minutes. I'm happy to see her smile.
Lately, lots of things happen.Do you know i think of u from morning till night?
I even bring the gift u give me back to ipoh.
Why is this happening to me? I know u need time to sort out yr heart.
but sometimes i just too scare to loss you, maybe i am really selfish. Yes I am.
I really want to make u happy, just now afternoon i called you, hope i can make thing back to normal a bit, but i failed. U are 182KM away from me. I hate this. I hate holiday, maybe because of last time unfruitful change after holiday, which make me have phobia over holidays. I know u sure will be going out with him, i'm pretty sure he will kiss you. I'm sitting here can't do anything except call and sms you.
I'm very scare. I hope u still keep the stuff i give u in KL.
I don't want to let go, I know deep inside your heart u still think of me, I can still feel yr heart still have me.
Everything happen for a reason, can let me be yr meaningful reason instead of nightmare?
If u have make clear of yr mind already, please tell me, don't defer it. But i beg u please think carefully, there is no turning back.
Please stop thinking that u are bringing misery to me, I'm very happy to be with u, I really do, I cherish every moment we had together, especially when we go out for movie for surregate, and windows shopping at timesquare, mid valley, studying together, msn chat till late late.
I'm only suffer when u ask for break, but i don't mind since u want time to think, i willing to bear the suffer if it can help u sort out the mess inside yr heart.

I keep video calling u but it seems u had changed yr phone already. Maybe sleep already since i sms you, but the message still pending. So i miss call you.

Just now afternoon, my friend fetch me by her moto. long long time didn't ride a motorbike already. Went to her bf house. Only realise she was helping her bf burning DVD. xxx too, I was like OMG, his house store lots of DVD. I feel pity for this girl, she help him clean his house, wash his clothes, clean his room, even help him burn xxx DVD. Felt pity for him, she deserve a better life. I only feel the different life of the "other", it so terrible, the bed so was dirty, quick a very different experience coz i never see such a dirty bed b4.
i was so bored at the house, when u sms me, i quickly call u. 12 share some story to you.

Keep checking the delivery report see whether u receive my sms.
I really don't know what to say already. I come this far already, actually when i told my friend about my story, lots of them give me negative feedback, but i insist to continue, coz i really happy(nvr been that happy b4) when i first fell in love to you,i never have such a strong feeling toward someone except you even u have bf already that time.
U must know i'm really happy to fell in love with u and happy to be with you.

18 december already. This year gonna end soon.
Time goes so fast, but uncertainty still arise in my mind.
The presents, don't know how i should deal with it, this week chat a lot with my previous classmate, some studying, some working. Don't know can meet them or not next week, quite heavy scheduled trip. Suddenly feel 4 days 3 night not enough, maybe i will stay longer. Not sure yet, still i have control my cash flow too.

Today she give me this.
Quite cute.

To be honest, I'm still clueless now. I don't know which direction I really need to take.Thank god holiday come in a right time. I need to think carefully. Need to be alone to think carefully during holiday AT IPOH, coz i really need funs at KL.
Hopefully can get a job, much better. Don't care much about the salary.
After holidays, need to fully focus on study.
Never thought it will end up like this. just want to together with the one i love and the one who love me. Just want a have a ordinary relationship. Everytime i see people having relationship, those pic, outside, i really admire them, especially aaron, sometimes i see them i really want to go tell them appreciate yr partners, she/he really love you, May yr love last forever. really admire them and really happy to see them can last so long, having celebrate 1 year anniversary. Suddenly i feel like don't know i can achieve it or not. suddenly feel that achieving those happiness really far far away from me already and is getting more far away from me.coz we already separated. if i tell aaron or miao wen, i think they will shock of it. Nope of them even know this. coz i tell them they will have talk somethings i don't want to listen.
sorry i kiss u, lost control.
again i have say again, it didn't affect my study.
U must know i taking risk to continue, i'm scare, but i'm willing to do so. I trust the 3 words you told me.
I want to love someone, and i wanted to be loved by someone i love. I'm happy previously I'm in relationship. Don't let this statement to be change in future.

Waiting for your call, I'm sick,
call I'm angry
call I'm desperate for your voice
I'm listening
to the song we used to sing
In the car, do you remember, butterfly
Early Summer
It's playing on repeat
Just like when we would meet
'cuz I was born
to tell you I love you
and I am torn
to do what I have to
to make you mine, stay with me tonight
Stripped and polished
I am new
I am fresh
I am feeling so ambitious,
you and me
flesh to flesh
'cause every breath that you will take
when you are sitting next to me
will bring life into my deepest hopes
What's you fantasy? What's yours? What yours? What's yours?
What's yours?
cuz i was born
to tell you I love you
and I am torn
to do what I have to
to make you mine, stay with me tonight
And I'm tired
of being all alone
and this solitary moment makes me
want to come back home
And I'm tired
of being all alone
and this solitary moment makes me
want to come back home
And I'm tired
of being all alone
and this solitary moment makes me
want to come back home
And I'm tired
of being all alone
and this solitary moment makes me
want to come back home
cuz I was born
to tell you I love you
and I am torn
to do what I have to
cuz I was born
to tell you I love you
and I am torn
to do what I have to
to make you mine, stay with me tonight

I think we should cool off.
This the sentences she told me. Not the first time, I think is the 3rd time.
I agreed without argue or ask why anymore.
I have no idea what to do.
I will not make any assumption.
I will just sit there and see.
Remember, you are the one who ask for break up 1st, 2nd and 3rd. 4th i think do exist too not mistaken. Yes it is.
Yes, i'm too over a bit to invade yr privacy by adding your friends in facebook, check yr message, check yr profile. I'm sorry. I'm just too worry.
I don't want this to happen, it never happen during the initial stage.
The break up come out so suddenly, but i did not shocked. I will keep all the stuff in the meant time. When the right time has come, the right action i will take.
What kind of action i'm going to take is depend on you current and future action.
I hope u will think carefully and rationally before u make another decision.
You say you still love me you still care me, show it to me.
Don't take things for granted anymore, I will not close my eyes again.
I really don't know what will happen in future, i have no idea what to do or should i say what can i do?
Will I treat u the same after this?
I don't know.
I always think of you and i love you as always as it is.
I am so speechless.

last friday i go kl with her. Took the KTM , reached kl central around 9.15p.m.
After that she find her friend and stay her friend's house while i find Mathu.
We also manage to play 2 hours pool too with ah zheng and mathu.

This is ah zheng, didn't take much photo.
The next days, go find zheng's mother to cut my hair.

Before


After
A while later, mathu, zheng, thong and i went to timesquare to hunt some jeans, too bad can't find any suitable jeans.

A loving couple
BUT....

Also a gay too..
The decoration quite nice too


Then go back wangsa. We were so bored then we go wangsa jusco walk around and have KFC. A while later then we go play pool liao. After that went to KLCC alone.
Too bad there was no decoration for christmas yet.

The next day, finally can see her. We go Mid valley first by LRT and KTM.
We had our lunch at Madam Kwan.
(pictures had been removed due to her request)
Didn't take photo except she taking photo of me. Then we walk around and have a look at clothes and wallet, too bad can't find any suitable wallet for her.
Then we walk to The Garden just to take some photo of the decoration.

(pictures had been removed due to her request)
She don't want me to take picture but I manage to take a picture of her. haha....

After that we go timesquare.
When we reached, we go starbucks have a tea break.
(pictures had been removed due to her request)
Last picture of her of the day.

Well, at the end of the day, i must thank her for the accessory she give me as a gift.

A locker??? I been locked liao? LOL!
Anywhere, is a very nice outing with her.So happy to be with her.
Looking for next time.

surprisingly, today i listen chinese from morning till now, IS A MIRACLE!!
I'm singing too...haha...
劲歌金曲
為你而活
为爱而生
无可救药
Kiss Goodbye
All love songs.
Gosh... give u a sneak shot.



hehe....
maybe that why it explain i was so in a good mood and keep listening love song.
If not mistaken, got around 400 stars, still got 600 to go.
hehe...
there still time.
as i had say, waiting the time to come.
my heart always with u only.

Dam dam dam... i'm so boring. Why???? why??
Nothing to do, unable to sleep, still early.
Poker??? where?? seems like hilang already.
Maybe forgotten already.
haiz...
better play starcraft. ....

Fall sick on friday, a day after i go ipoh buy N79. Now getting better, cause i can get write blog. Last two days i didn't contact to anyone after i finish sushi king during sunday morning. Go back home sick liao can't get up already.
just now go out eat alone, can see lots of storms. At long fong kok eat pan mee. when i finish eating, raining again. what to do? walk lo...go back home bath again change the clothes. Don't know later will go out or not weather like this.
Lonely..... I been lonely quite a while already.
3 week already gone. now week 4 liao....

don't know why i wake up at 7am while i set my alarm at 8am.
well, i guess i'm right, my phone never ring at all for the entire night.

I'm been so alone lately, don't know why this is happening. This is a terrible week for me. Everything not going my way. Come back Kampar with great hope, but fall into pieces already by now. I been isolated from you for 2 weeks, i thought when i come back we can get back together closely, until now i still can't achieve/feel it. Corrective action had taken already, yet i still can't achieve/feel it. I should say the corrective action won't even can be implemented at all, how terrible it can go. Well, anywhere, keep folding and hoping, coz i trust you, i believe you, please keep your word.

Last night watch football from 10pm till 5am.
next day wake up at 12pm, I was so bored that i can't take it go back kampar again.
One of my friend's friend just pass away. It remind me back another of my friend's friend. In this case, they all went to water fall and drown.
She is so luckily didn't go. If she had went to, I don't know how tearful i am now.
I don't know i can accept the reality.
Life. Some people's journey continue, some had stop. We can't control much about it. Appreciate what you had, be more happy.

也许这是最后的考验
当我再度遇见了你
是命运捆绑了我们
还是爱情相信了记忆
你的欺骗没有让我掉下眼泪
爱本善变的痛楚并非你的罪
爱是无辜的风筝
拉着最在乎的人
情已逝 我还在
注定一个人流浪
爱是断线的风筝
挣脱一开始的梦
黑暗中一步步的坠落红尘
给不起的是你的天真
为了他 你学会否认
不承认你给过青春
曾经爱过我的每一分
我多伤心宁成全你和他的吻
只好对自己的痛楚不负责任
爱是无辜的风筝
拉着最在乎的人
情已逝 我还在
注定一个人流浪
爱是断线的风筝
挣脱一开始的梦
黑暗中一步步的坠落红尘
无法挽救的温存
我是残破的风筝
宁愿在遥远的天空
看你转过身决定去实现你和他的承诺
爱是无辜的风筝
拉着最在乎的人
情已逝 我还在
注定一个人流浪
爱是断线的风筝
挣脱一开始的梦
黑暗中一步步的坠落红尘
也许这是最后的考验
当我再度遇见了你

Wohoo! Finally friday, weekends coming. Tomorrow plan to go Ipoh jusco watch movie with all my classmate and her too and also will be going to have MCD, yum yum, long time didn't eat MCD liao.

Just now jogging in westlake, long time didn't exercise already. The last time i exercise is 3 months ago if i not mistaken. Now my entire body very painful. Just now visited someone GF blog, I was like gosh, OMG, she was quite sad, no wonder she suddenly find me to chat that night. Anywhere, I always praise her BF (my friend) cause I know he is not a bad guy. Although he can't take girl's heart and always playful without caring people heart, he is a good man. Much much better than his old friend who always beside him. But this "him" seems be to good a bit, but still make me vomit the word he using, I might be sensitive, but ......... please la!

Those people I really don't care much already, she is the most important person in my life. Nothing else matter beside her. Just now after jog, having dinner with zheng them, suddenly a friend of me call me yam cha, i don't want, but in the end i do yam cha with him with his gf. Guess what? Free trip to Melaka! Hahahaha.....

He was doing MLM stuff and was going to Melaka attending a talk, still got 1 empty place, ask me to go. At first i reluctant to go, but think again, I really long time didn't have a good adventure trip already, i really long time didn't go out meet new people outside my environment already. Going to Melaka this Sunday, should be 9.30am departing and come back midnight. Even I'm going with strangers, but its going to be fun, remind me back my time with MCMC although this time this is MLM activities.

Zheng they all going khakabo Dotaing, hope he care her gf first. She and her friends going to celebrate their friend's birthday and I'm alone in the room as usual facing the computer. Sometimes it is good too to be alone for a while. Peace. No need to worry or care anything. But of cause, once again, i have to say to myself, LIFE IS NEVER EASY. so??? Just trying to have a better life.

Long long time didn't write diary already, I'm going to write now.

Finally new semester start already. As usual, the first week is always the most boring one. So bored, everyday sit in front of the computer, or go out yam cha.
BOREDOM!

next week start school lo...
luckily time go so fast, so suffering this semester break. Wait and wait and wait.
Everyday play pc game just to get my time pass by as fast as possible, now still got less than 71 hours to go. Tomorrow will go KL, have a vacation with my family, but i gonna have to take bus because not enough seat in the car. so i was force to take bus, just bought my bus ticket, this will be my first time taking bus since..... very long. i forget when is the last time i take a bus, i think is last year, haha..whatever.

today feel so strange, feel something not right, don't know why, don't know what, just feel....something had happen, something bad happen. Hope my feeling is wrong but it always right most of the time. I shall see.

Holiday went back KL with some of my classmates. Having some fun around KL, not the most perfecting outing but is an enjoyable one.

Saturday evening 4.30 finish exam liao went back my hostel play game a while then go cut my hair. My hair so ugly, that stupid fellow don't know how to cut hair de..
some more senior cut...wtf!! Never plan to go back hometown, but my dad suddenly give me 11 missed call which give me a shock, call back, tell me go back eat dinner. GO GO GO! GO BACK! Then go back lo.. I was planning to have fun with my classmate and later at night find her. Well, it never happen, after finish dinner which i only realise is was my dad birthday, then go back home lo...sleep overnite there.

The next day, around 11am go back kampar pack my stuff, ready to go KL and pack my pc go back kampar, coz in holiday period, kampar hostel always kena robbed de. Pack everything liao already around 2pm, go back ipoh put my pc and some stuff, then 4pm start go KL lo...This was totally not my plan at all which i planned after exam.
Really disappointed. So sien all day long, all by myself. In some point when I back to ipoh from kampar, i was thinking not going to KL on sunday. But think again and again. Better go after my dad reimburse me RM100.

Start going 4pm reach Mathu house shape shape 7pm to find him makam dinner. Then met back some of my old friend from dac group 1. We have our dinner at station 1, only at there i only realise that day was mathu birthday. After having dinner at Genting Klang, then we all go TBR play pool, play quite a while, 3 hours. One thing never change and i never like to solve, how to divide the cost since so many people playing. Coz those people who pay it will always end up pay the most which is me for most of the case. Well this time different, I don't pay 1st. haha....Mathu pay 1st. so i just pay 1 hour, the other 2 hour i don't care, let them solve it. My Problem end. then around 12am midnight, the girls finally come, they didn't play much, after that, we go steven corner yam cha. I go there a while there go back kepong liao coz my brother say he want to sleep already as i don't have the key.

Well, that nite i was so angry for the entire week in KL. Reach kepong liao, the guard ask me, what house i want to go, i was like omg, i don't know what his house number, it took a while for me to persuade the guard to let me in but finally i do manage to get in. reach there, omg, my battery dead. How to find him? door lock, no bell, no handphone, think again and again. again and again...
look around nobody around since it is already 3am liao..
get in my car get out my car. totally out of idea, then finally i went back to find the guard again then borrow a handphone and call my bro, after that i give him RM1 since he was sincerely enough to borrow.

Back inside, i only realise i have to follow his time, coz he don't have extra key, i have to follow what time he going out, i was like... oh shit...
sleep a nite liao the next day go sunway, eat shogun. Eat buffet japanese food for RM32 promotion was quite cheap, but anywhere, still not my type. Anywhere, the food was only okay. And i not the type who like to eat a lot.
after shogun then ice skating.
Ice skating was quite nice and there was not a lot of people, the girls also follow too. But i can see through their eyes some of them were not quite interested and happy to skate. Some only. But overall is quite fun.

after that, i was a long journey to me, i fetch them all back, some back TBR some back kepong. I really drive a lot that day, morning from kepong to TBR, to sunway. then from sunway to TBR and back kepong, then later go Taman Desa find her.
I was really glad i didn't get loss. I was so relief when i come out from the car when i reach.

Next day go timesquare and sungei wang. Walk around, didn't do anything else. But i do miss a lot that part when we leave timesquare.
wednesday go 1U walk around too. Then later at nite go clubbing, but the girls didn't go coz they want to go pasar malam in cheras. disappointed coz they all keep saying go go go but didn't go liao, but anywhere, i do go coz i really long time didn't go and i plan to be drunk and i do manage to drunk myself. i must say, for some reason suddenly i was so depressed in the club, for some reason i actually broke down into tear when i'm in clubbing, I keep crying, then i vomit and i was so down for the first time in the club, sitting on the floor. then after that, cheng fu bring us back with my car. Well think back of it, actually we was cheated to go there since they say was it gonna around RM60 but it end of RM90 where 4 person share one whiskey. I was like OMG, but nvr mind, it like that price de la going there so late.

The next day we went to The Garden have our lunch which is quite expensive but quite famous for some reason i don't know. The food was quite tasty, quite unique actually, i like it a lot. But the man in front of me say he don't like it, I must say, that fellow really always want muka punya. Don't want say don't want la...apalu ini. Cakap banyak banyak, selalu tahu macam mana mencantikkan sendiri dan ambil orang liao punya hati sahaja. I didn't care much, he like that, and i do know i'm not the only person with that perception. Those who are wondering and i want to know why can go ask dac group 1 2007 may intake(etc,his current roommate) you will know. Sound nice in the beginning, But.....time will tell, i keep my lips tight. Irrelevant to me. Not my problem. I just keep silence. Silence nice. Hahahahaha...as his roommate say.

Back home everyday facing the computer. On9, Gaming, so bored, didn't go out play coz need to save money to buy handphone, but i got a strong feeling that i not gonna buy any new phone yet for this month, maybe next month.
So bored, still got 12 day from now, i didn't see her 6 days already...
I SOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO MIIIIIIIIIIIIIIISSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSS HEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEERRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRR !!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Tomorrow gonna have exam at 2p.m. Don't know why now I don't have mood to study.
I'm getting lazy compare previously when i was at TARC, probably there is no motivation. During TARC life, i was aiming at least 3.65 and I manage do make it.
Now at UTAR, at first I was aiming 3.5 at least, but after knowing my coursework marks, and a totally sure no A in my AFA(main accounting paper)for the first time since last time during secondary school. Really demotivated... All my coursework didn't done quite fine, 2/6 subject I manage to get A in coursework, English and Management Principle, the easiest paper for this semester.

Suddenly feel that my 3.5 CGPA is so far away from me and this is the first semester only,how am i gonna continue to fight on with the remaining 5 semester. Maybe I shouldn't aim that high, is unrealistic already if i still think I can take it.
Maybe I could. I shall see what happen for next semester, I should not judge my first semester as the entire 2 years result. But a good beginning is a half accomplishment for success as chinese always says. Even I fail to get 3.5, it doesn't really matter. I'm getting really feed up with studying. What so important about study? I get 4 or 3.5 or 3 so what? Does it really matter? Does it really relevant in our future?

Suddenly keep thinking what will be my life be if I continuing in TARC for advanced diploma, will I still be that good as previously at Diploma? What is my life will be?
What kind of friend do I hang out with?
I'm changing. I'm not going to be same as I am during in my diploma life. Different environment, changing my personality. Good or bad I still not sure, but we must always look forward. SO, Continue to study, study smart! Must get 3.5!

You gotta swim
Swim for your life
Swim for the music
That saves you
When you're not so sure you'll survive
You gotta swim
Swim when it hurts
The whole world is watching
You haven't come this far
To fall off the earth
The currents will pull you
Away from your love
Just keep your head above

I found a tidal wave
Begging to tear down the door
Memories like bullets
They fired at me from a gun
Cracking me open now
I swim to brighter days
In spite of the absence of sun
Choking on salt water
I'm not giving in
Swim

You gotta swim
Tonight's the moment
Swim for your family
Your mothers your sisters
Your brothers yours friends
You gonna swim
For wars without cause
Swim for these lost politicians
Who don't see their greed is a flaw
The current will pull us
Away from our love
Just keep your head above

I found a tidal wave
Begging to tear down the door
Memories like bullets
They fired at me from a gun
Cracking me open now
I swim to brighter days
In spite of the absence of sun
Choking on salt water
I'm not giving in
I'm not giving in

Swim
You gotta swim
Swim gotta in the dark
There's an ocean to drift in
Feel the tides shifting away from this war
Yeah you gotta swim
Don't let yourself sink
Just follow the horizon
I promise it's not as far as you think
Currents will drag use away from our love
Just keep your head above
Just keep your head above
Swim
Just keep your head above
Swim
Just keep your head above
Swim

When i see your smile
Tears run down my face I can't replace
And now that I'm strong I have figured out
How this world turns cold and it breaks through my soul
And I know I'll find deep inside me I can be the one
I will never let you fall
I'll stand up with you forever
I'll be there for you through it all
Even if saving you sends me to heaven
It's okay. It's okay. It's okay.
Seasons are changing and waves are crashing
And stars are falling all for us
Days grow longer and nights grow shorter
I can show you I'll be the one
I will never let you fall(let you fall)
I'll stand up with you forever
I'll be there for you through it all(through it all)
Even if saving you sends me to heaven
Cause you're my, you're my, my, my true love, my whole heart
Please don't throw that away
cause I'm here for you
Please don't walk away and
Please tell me you'll stay stay
Use me as you will
Pull my strings just for a thrill
And I know I'll be okay
Though my skies are turning gray
I will never let you fall
I'll stand up with you forever
I'll be there for you through it all
Even if saving you sends me to heaven
I will never let you fall
I'll stand up with you forever
I'll be there for you through it all
Even if saving you send me to heaven....

Dam...1 semester goes so fast. gonna holiday already. this time my exam didn't very badly, even the result is not out, i haven't finish my exam yet. but i know i did very badly. Look like i am gonna have little A in my result, my most confidence paper AFA can't even get A. so disappointed. this holiday gonna go back KL^^. Happy!
Long time didn't drive at KL, didn't travel around, stuck at this boring place Kampar, hopefully i can meet up all my old friends at KL, i want to go IU, Mid valley, and lots of place.

I'm getting tired of studying already, sometimes i keep thinking of i'm keep on studying so hard, does it really help me in future? being excellent in study gonna mean excellent in work environment? obviously i don't think so, but i try to lie myself that it is. when i finish this degree program, don't know i still have the strength to continue to finish my remaining 6 CIMA papers. my future is full of dark cloud. I can't predict my future. I can't even predict what will happen this 2 year in degree. She seems 12 continue, but sometimes she seems to be don't want to continue. I really hope i can see her graduate.

Life is so unpredictable, what come around goes around. Must always look forward, don't look back, don't let the past haunt you. the future is in your hand, bringing up the past is just an excuse.

Is Sunday again. Time goes so fast. A bind of an eyes is already gonna finish 1 semester. Hard to settle myself in Kampar, but now everything seems to be looking fine already. All coursework finish already, didn't fail or get any high score, just moderate and acceptable, which is far away from my 1st honor degree. Never mind, still got final exam, hopefully i can done pretty well in my final exam.

Yesterday night i saw a very old movie call "There Will Be Blood". Although it quite old, but it quite interesting to see and meaningful. What you done to others in the pass, will haunt you back in the future. Desperation will lead you too anger, anger will lead you to self-destruction. If someone hate you from the beginning or use you as a tool, is meaningless to stay on with them any longer. Lots of moral in this movie, but in the end, the devil won. He killed all the people he say he will kill them.

I done something quite stupid, I don't know she will know or not, but i think she will never know the answer.

My birthday gone already, 20 year old officially. Celebrate my birthday with classmates, a very thank you to all my classmate who have such a nice heart to sacrifice their time to celebrate denise, feng and my birthday. It was a wild celebration as somebody bring whisky to drink in pizza hut, somebody keep screaming so loud until we can heard other people from other table shouting to us to keep us silence.

Anywhere, it just another day. Gonna keep living my life.

another year went on, is my 20th birthday tomorrow.
I'm getting older, so does my friends, very long time didn't see all my old friends liao. Miss my old time during secondary school. Today meet some of my formal secondary school classmate. Everyone had changed, so does me.
One things different for this birthday is that my wish gonna difference from prior years already. Suddenly feel that I'm a very cold person, i don't show feeling, how to change my cold blood heart? i need someone give me warm, I don't want this cold heart already.

I think too much already just now.

suddenly my feeling is so down, the way she saying about it, and the things happen that night, the things she tell me last night, if would be a lie IF anything happen.

Something had happen. I don't know what to say, but just now(last night) I keep dreaming it what had happen yesterday night until I can't sleep any longer. That's why I here writing blog in the morning. Some part of me feel happy, but some part of me feel bad. It quite strange.I don't know what to say. Things I can say is that when I went back home, I only realize that my mouth very smelly and some part of my body feel very pain plus I got a scratch in my head.

http://niamah.blogspot.com/2009/08/now-what.html
http://themalaysianinsider.com/index.php/malaysia/34686-umno-youth-leaders-to-get-military-style-training
This is really getting out of hand.
That's the headline. Stupid isn't it? At a time like this in Malaysian politics they make an announcement like that? Who's their spin doctor? I mean even if you have been sleeping the last 52 years and woke up to read that in the Bernama news release you'd be a little miffed. Wouldn't you?

http://khookaypeng.blogspot.com/2009/08/big-ideas-small-minds.html

I find this video quite special, so I post it here.

I love it.


Do you know what's worth fighting for?
When it's not worth dying for?
Does it take your breath away
And you feel yourself suffocating?

Does the pain weigh out the pride?
And you look for a place to hide?
Did someone break your heart inside?
You're in ruins

One, 21 guns
Lay down your arms, give up the fight
One, 21 guns
Throw up your arms into the sky, you and I

When you're at the end of the road
And you lost all sense of control
And your thoughts have taken their toll
When your mind breaks the spirit of your soul

Your faith walks on broken glass
And the hangover doesn't pass
Nothing's ever built to last
You're in ruins

One, 21 guns
Lay down your arms, give up the fight
One, 21 guns
Throw up your arms into the sky, you and I

Did you try to live on your own
When you burned down the house and home?
Did you stand too close to the fire
Like a liar looking for forgiveness from a stone?

When it's time to live and let die
And you can't get another try
Something inside this heart has died
You're in ruins

One, 21 guns
Lay down your arms, give up the fight
One, 21 guns
Throw up your arms into the sky

One, 21 guns
Lay down your arms, give up the fight
One, 21 guns
Throw up your arms into the sky, you and I

Time pass so fast. I'm gonna be 20 year old already this August. I still feel that I'm somewhere around 18 year old. However, i need to admit I'm not that young anymore.

After finishing Secondary school, I don't have hope, I don't have dream, I don't know what path I need to choose. Even think of working already, don't want to study any longer. Never predict that i will be a diploma holder, never predict that I will be enrolling in a Degree program. Most of all, never predict that I will be at Kampar studying. I myself also felt that I'm not the same in the past already, I'm totally changed already and thank god I changed. However, something never change before, is the music that i listen, all the songs from 2 years ago, I'm still listening it. What really happen to me????

I'm still remember the first time i arguing my mum 2 years ago about the issue going to KL study TARC. First, is was about filling up the form, then, start arguing, then start scolding and screaming. Finally, it end up we both crying. That was the first time and hopefully the only time I scold my mum. My mum love me and I love my mum. During that time, my family can say to have financial difficulty. Even though she didn't say is about money issue, I know is about money issue, but i keep insist to go KL study because I want to run away from home as far as possible. The reason is during that time, I don't like my home, lot of unhappiness. After that incident, I'm starting to have a dignity, I want to prove to my parent that I never make the wrong decision.

First time reach KL to start studying(previously also got go KL for vacation purpose), I was staying in with my oldest brother at Melati Utama PV5, A-13-13. To be honest, even though the environment is nice, things didn't go very well with my brother, i still remember for one occasion i almost think of moving out after he scolding me for some reason which is beyond my control. I still remember those days in Melati utama, beside my roommate issue, other things was quite good. I still remember there is a Christian group call MCMC. I do have a lot of fun with them, those memories will never erased from my brain. I meet a lots of friends at there. Lots of enjoyable memory with them too. In my photo file in my computer, the most pictures folder is my MCMC folder.

Then the first time having college examination, I still remember i was freaking scary because it was a english language paper. During that time, my english was dam weak, i was so scare that i even think of failing the paper. Beside that paper, i never ever think of failing any subject already. When the result come out, i was also shock to see a such a good result beside my english language paper which i just manage to get a Pass. From that moment, I starting to have belief in myself. I will always think of "I can do it". Eventually, since then from that moment, I always have confidence in myself and i manage to get flying color in my diploma.

I still remember it was the year 2008, March I start driving my mum's car, Kancil. During that time, i was dam happy, after taking bus for almost a year, finally have a car to drive. Driving car in KL also change my life a lot. For once i was so blur that i never know any KL road, but now at least i know how to go some places, i don't dare to say all because KL is so big that i don't think much people can know all the road. Because i have the car, i manage to go a lot of places. Even though Kancil is the cheapest car around, until today, i still quite okay with it because it got lot of memories with me. I still remember Kok Chun, Aaron, Zheng, Joshua, Khai Ming, Wei Lun, Cheng Fu, Mathu and me always go out together, go Hang gai, play pool, da gai, yamcha, vacation and also clubbing too. Haha.... Sometimes i might not happy with them for some reason, but still it was a good gang of friends. Lots of fun. Must thank to them, without them, I miss a lot of things.

I also want to mention about my genting Kelang roommate, jason How. He is a good roommate. I still remember the time we always play dota together every night. Every night, when 10p.m. - 11p.m. reached, automatically we will say dota time. I still remember sometime his girlfriend from Batu Pahat will take bus come to KL find him and sleep with him too in the room where I also sleeping too. Feel so funny, a pair of lover can sleep together with a guy inside the room. For once, i remember one night around 10p.m., when i was checking what movie is showing in cinema, he ask me what got what movie is showing on cinema, i say Yes!man!, then when he say lets go, then we straight away go to cinema watch the movie with his girlfriend too. Beside his GF, I still got always hang out with his gang too. They are also a good gang of friends where they always very outgoing too. All pro in computer, must really thanks to my roommate who always help me format my computer and install useful utilities programs for my computer. Those life is so good. Got happiness with my course-mates, when come back home got happiness with roommates and his friends because we also got play dota together with his gang of friends.

I also meet a gang of friends who always play badminton in Wangsa Maju, KLRC. They all quite old already compare to me because all of them are graduated and working, some even already married. Every Sunday they will always book 1 or 2 courts and 6 to 14 people will always be there to play badminton. Have a lot of fun with them. And because of this, I got my only sole forward email supplier. Until now, even I'm not at KL any longer, they still forward email to me and inform me the time and court. Really a good badminton Kaki. I will go back one day and find them back.

Not least, i also have to mention my classmate. Even though i don't talk much with classmates. I do need to thank to my classmate who celebrate my birthday. I do appreciate it. Even i didn't join most of the activities, i know you all are also outgoing friends, especially the cheranting trip, u all do organize it very well. I do remember i had open attack on group 5 in this blog. If u do manage to read it, well, I'm really sorry if it hurt you, especially Lam Kah leong. Really do sorry. Sometimes some people like me do let their evil angry mind take over them.

Lastly, i also want to mention about a friend call CK(until today i only know he call CK, do not know his full name). He also got bring me out play too and meet his gang of friends. A Kbox Kaki friends. Actually he also the first person who take me out to hang gai. We meeet in badminton society, and eventually found out that we live in the same block(during that time is 2007, i moved to genting kelang 2008). We do share a lot of things together, especially things relates to relationship. We also got participate badminton competition, but i failed him. Now i don't know what happen to him, I never find him lately. I will find him soon.

This is a summary of my college life as i can't define every moment happen in my college life as there is too much events happened. So, to be honest to myself, I do have a good college life, meets lots of lots of lots of lots of friends, have lots of fun, learn a lot of things, know a lot of things.

But that is the past already, have to be always focus the future. I been writing this blog for 2 hours already and i keep listening the same song 吴克群-爱太痛 for 2 hours already. coz i feel the lyrics in this song really singing the same situation I'm having.I do feel really painful.

Michael Jackson died Thursday afternoon (June 25) at the age of 50 after suffering cardiac arrest.

Reports say the legendary pop singer collapsed and suffered cardiac arrest at his home in the Los Angeles neighborhood of Holmby Hills. A doctor present at the time of the incident performed CPR on the singer but could not revive him. He was not breathing and had no pulse when paramedics arrived after a 911 call around 12:26 p.m. PT. They administered CPR and took Jackson via ambulance to UCLA Medical Center but were unable to revive him.

At the hospital, a team of doctors, including emergency physicians and cardiologists, attempted to resuscitate him for more than an hour, but were unsuccessful. According to Jermaine Jackson, the singer's brother, Michael was pronounced dead at 2:26 p.m.

During a brief press conference on Thursday evening, a visibly shaken Jermaine stepped in front of cameras and said, "This is hard."

After describing details about the incident's timeline, Jermaine closed by saying, "Our family requests that the media please respect our privacy during this tough time. And may Allah be with you, Michael, always."

The exact circumstances surrounding Jackson's death continue to remain unclear. Jackson's brother Marlon told CNN that Michael was not feeling well Wednesday night and a doctor was called to the house. Jackson family attorney Brian Oxman speculated to CNN that the singer's death might be related to the abuse of prescription medication.

Los Angeles Police Department robbery/homicide detectives have begun an investigation into the death, though there is no evidence of criminal wrongdoing. Detectives will interview relatives, friends and Jackson's doctors. The L.A. County coroner's office will conduct an autopsy Friday.

From his early career in the 1970s with his family group the Jackson 5 to his decades-long career as a solo artist, Jackson stood as one of the most successful and beloved pop artists of all time, selling more than 750 million albums worldwide. He won 13 Grammy Awards.The Jackson 5's first single, 1969's "I Want You Back," hit #1 on the Billboard charts, and the Motown group went on to become one of the most popular acts during the '70s with hit singles like "ABC," "I'll Be There" and "The Love You Save."

In 1978, Jackson joined Diana Ross in the big-screen musical "The Wiz," an adaptation of the Broadway musical based on "The Wonderful Wizard of Oz." His career as a solo artist took off with 1982's Thriller, which stands as the biggest-selling album of all time. Over the course of his career, with hit albums like Bad and Dangerous, Jackson scored five #1 Billboard 200 albums and seven #1 Billboard Hot 100 singles.

But Jackson's career faltered as he suffered several scandalous legal battles. In 1994, he settled a civil suit stemming from child-molestation accusations. In 2005, he was acquitted on 10 felony counts in a child-molestation trial brought against him, including four counts of lewd acts on a child under 14 and four counts of administering alcohol to enable child molestation.

Still, he released a greatest-hits album in 1995, which hit #1 on the Billboard chart, and embarked on a hugely successful world tour. His 2001 album, Invincible, also reached the top Billboard slot; it would prove to be his final studio album.

At the time of his death, Jackson was gearing up for a comeback, rehearsing for a series of 50 sold-out shows in London's O2 arena that would jump-start a world tour, a new album and possibly a movie. In what is believed to be his final public appearance, Jackson showed up at a press conference in London wearing one of his signature quasi-military outfits and announced the initial plan for the concerts. Describing the shows as a "final curtain call," Jackson told the assembled crowd of fans and media, "This is it. This is it! I just want to say these will be my final shows, performances in London. ... When I say this is it, it really means this is it."

Jackson eventually postponed by several days the July start of the O2 shows, raising questions about his health. But after his death, a source close to Jackson told MTV News, "Michael has been in rehearsals. He's been in good spirits. He's been rehearsing eight hours a day for the London concerts."

On June 9, TMZ caught Jackson sitting in a black SUV. Asked if could still do the moonwalk, his signature dance move, Jackson replied, "Why wouldn't I be able to?"

Born on August 29, 1958, in Gary, Indiana, Jackson was the seventh of nine children. He married Lisa Marie Presley — Elvis' only child — in 1994, but they divorced in 1996. The same year, Jackson married Debbie Rowe and had two children before splitting in 1999.

The singer is survived by three children: Michael Joseph Jackson Jr., Paris Michael Katherine Jackson and Prince "Blanket" Michael Jackson II.

How to have faith in his 1Malaysia whilst he says he cannot micro manage and he:-

* stays silent whilst the public is banned from uttering the name of a certain Mongolian lady

* stays silent whilst the police bans residents of this country from wearing black, previously it was the orange Hindraf;

*stays sillent whilst the police ‘tangkap’ candlelight vigilers

*stays silent whilst the polist ‘tangkap’ the lawyers who volunteer their legal aid to the arrested candlelight vigilers;

* stays silent when Awang Selamat of Utusan makes racist comments to stoke racial fires

* personally and publicly encourages PAS to continue with the unity-govt agenda knowing fully well that this unity thing is only about Muslim-Malay unity and not Malaysian unity.

* will not take responsiblity for the 1987 ’soak the keris in chinese blood’ incident eventhough those words may not have come out from his lips but he was head/deputy head of UMNO Youth at that time and people all across the nation had watched TV that fateful night and saw him and other UNMO Youth leaders standing in front of racist crowds surrounded by banners with those ugly racist words.

here i am, writing blog again. today so strange, i should be having class at 9.30am, i set my alarm at 8.30am, but today i wake up 7am already, the funny things is i don't even watch the phone or clock and straight away run to the toilet and bath. coming out then i only realize is 7am in the morning. so strange.

now is week 3 already in utar, got Advanced Financial Accounting(AFA), Accounting Information System(AIS), Audit, English for Management and Pengajian Malaysia(PM).

AFA and AIS assignment is presentation which is at week 6 if not mistaken and a test. audit got two test, engish and PM is all presentation and assignment. so far as for now, i haven't start any assignment yet, so lazy.

yesterday night i when to walk to westlake's garden there to have jogging with my friends,the environment is very nice, i didn't take much of photo coz there is lots of people around, feel paise if keep taking pictures where there is lots of people around, here are the some photo, next timei will take some well-post picture to have a better view.
after jogging, i walk back have a bath then fetch my friends with 2 cars and go to ipoh have mcd.hehe..took half hour ride to reach mcd at ipoh.
then after come back kampar, i when out watch football with other friends, it was a boring was, coz spain only win 1-0 over iraq. the expectation was high on spain, but spain never fill up a full strength team.





at kampar utar life, just like a village life, but luckily still got a tesco around.

inside utar, the building look quite nice, in between building, it has lots of tree and flower which make the school look really nice.




here some other photo at tesco i took, look very nice too.


i do remember last week i got go back KL, to have some fun too.
friday and saturday i was staying at aaron's room, and sunday i go to boulevard hotel at mid valley city there to stay with my family as my family go to KL to have a short vacation at mid valley coz school holiday.
this picture is the picture taken from 28th floor. it is mid valley shopping complex.

this is the garden, i never though there got parking from top floor.
these are the other photo i taken.

when i go back kl that day, i was fetching kc and joshua, coz i miss out the kepong exit, i have to use the kl exit. Dam! lots of car.
then i drop kc at pudu, as usualy, pudu always traffic jam.
then go to sri gomabak drop joshua, took a lot of time just to drop them.
that friday nite, go out play pool and yamcha only and also find some old friends who come to kl study advanced.
the next day, go to mid valley with jian wen and her roommate, walk walk walk and play bowling too, the bowling environment at mid valley was dam cool.
i think that all for 2day coz i got class at 9.30am. next time i blog, i post some of the protest haven't around perak which i got taken some picture by myself..

Finally i got time to post.
After going UTAR, having problem to adjust my life at Kampar.
Lots of thing need to be done.
Submit form, knowing the area, what block is what block, where is block A, where is Department of Student Affairs. Need to register car sticker which cost me RM100 per semester, need to submit my detail, my IC, SPM, 6 semester result, all those kind of things.
Today, almost 90% of the problem is been solved, and finally, i going for the convocation after today last minute action. In the morning ask my father bank in money to me, afternoon go to bank buy bankdraft then quickly go pos malaysia to Pos Laju my mail which will take 1 working day to reach its destination which will be next Monday( the deadline). Then today need to submit my photocopy IC, passport size photo and form to office which is also today is the last day, and today is the first time i enter my own tutorial class after 1 week of ponteng and replacement class and finally i can see my own classmate. Then i only found out that i been elected as the class rep for my group 17.
Don't know to say i lucky or not but whatever la...just loss some time for playing only.
Today is also the day that i finally can on9 with my pc officially coz the tm net personnel finally come to my house and fix the problem after 1 week of no internet connection which my friend KC, mess up with the modem setting.
After a busy day, i feel free, coz i also finally collect all the printing fees and printing book fees from all my classmate today, so happy actually, that why i got mood to write blog even though i'm very tired.
UTAR life, need to go to school during Saturday as expected. Almost everyday need to wake up at 8am. 8am on monday, wednesday and friday plus saturday, 9am at tuesday and thursday. so cham...need to wake up so early
now at kampar, renting a room upsite shoplots. RM70 per month a room, but the room is quite small, but enough to fit me inside will all my stuff, so it is sufficient for me.
About the syllabus, each subject got part of it got study before, and some haven't study, so it won't be a much difficult for me as some i had study before.
gonna spend 2 year in Kampar. After 2 year in kampar, i'm definitely gonna going back kl to continue my life. To be honest, i don't live kampung area like kampar, but dad won't finance me to go uk top-up a degree in ktar, so no choice borrow ptptn go utar get a degree 1st. then work a while then continue with the professional paper, CIMA, after degree, i still got 5 paper leave. then become CIMA.
i don't want to live my life in a kampung or not happening life.
i want to challenge myself, i want to success, i want to achieve, dare to dream, dare to do it in ethical manner of course, please don't label me extremist. obviously u don't dare to dream, u don't have goal, life is meaningless.
next time if free , i post some photo and interesting story if possible, coz this group got lots of cars, enough to fetch every single of the 30 people to travel, there will be interesting event happen. but most of time should be happening at kl.

and to be honest, i don't like blogging actually, i keep blogging just to know what is my thinking, what is my though. what i had change.

Korea Tourism Organization(Organizer of the Breakout Extreme Dance Comedy) and LG Electronics are organising a Malaysia B-Boy Dance Competition at the Sunway Pyramid.

There were 22 teams competing in the preliminary rounds last week on 17th May to fill the top 8 places in the finals.

The finals are going to be held this Sunday, 24th May at 1pm at the same venue.Breakout performers and its dance director Mr Jeon will be making an apperance at the finals. Jeon will join two other judges on the panel. Come join Markus(battleground judge), Fellest Yan and other top local B-Boys at the competition.

Breakout management company, Seven Sense Inc., is also here to talent scout for Malaysia top B-Boys to join their open run theatre in Seol.

This is making me sick. This time, another sixteen people, including Teratai state assemblyperson Jenice Lee, were arrested by the police outside her service centre about 8.45pm last night for allegedly holding an illegal assembly.

Ampang Jaya district police chief Abdul Jalil Hassan told reporters that the 16 were arrested for gathering without a police permit.

Come on! Why the police keep arresting people for illegal assembly? Why don't arrest those Mat Rempit and criminal? Even celebrating birthday need a permit? Sad to see such a foolish incident can happen in Malaysia.

Hi, want to see comedy and extreme breakdance show?
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This is a show that you will don't want to miss out. Tickets is limited so better purchase the ticket at the nearest Axcess outlets.
For more information just go to http://www.axcess.com.my

Anywhere, i'm going to if i find somebody to accompany to go with me. Don't have transport please contact me for those who know me.

Again. Malaysia is achieve another big achievement. Arresting 20 people in front of the police station staging peaceful protest. when i say 'protest', I mean they were sitting on the ground, lighting candles only.

This two items above have is that they are suspected to have the curious potential of causing social unrest or political instability in Malaysia.

You can see the so-called police chief wearing a T-shirt when on duty walking out shouting so loud toward the peaceful protestors, don't know they got should so loud to criminals or not. This is the quality of our leaders in Malaysia.

The police chief also refused to let lawyers see their client and refused to let them into the police station department and arrested all the lawyers outside where the police called it as 'unlawful gathering without permit'.

Malaysia is a peaceful country? Think again. With this kind of police around, it will only make the country more chaos only.

During my primary school, my teacher always tell me that Malaysia in the best, Malaysia is peaceful country. But for now, Malaysia is definitely not a peaceful country. You name it, increasing crime rate and rape cases, political unrest, stray dogs being dumped on an island, bribery, abuse power, land scam and a lot more. Its like "all in one" in Malaysia.

If my friend asks me is Malaysia is a good place to travel? Obviously I will say no! You want to eat better food?go China, you want better beach? You can find it in Thailand. You want shopping? go Singapore.

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=TQmz6Rbpnu0&feature=player_embedded

listen and think,what is yr next course of action?

this the end of this goh thuan yung.
from next week onward.
i will like, a reborn goh thuan yung.
the pass will be the pass, the future is in our hand.
i will think of a new name, not gonna be white ghost anymore.
i'm gonna change everything as i can.

in my pass...there is a day where is should be an ordinary travel to go back my hometown ipoh. is a day when i go back ipoh with my friend whereby my friend fetch me back.i remember that day was friday, after school, i have to travel from melati utama(2008 year 1 semester 3)to kelana jaya. from there we wait my friend's brother to fetch us back to his house 1st as he had something else to do..(my friend's brother who will be fetching us back ipoh).
reaching at his home, if not mistaken is around 2pm...since we have to wait, my friend then fetch me to nearest mcd to take away some mcd back home to eat while there is another fellow just sleeping in the house.
then, we wait wait wait wait wait until 7p.m, his brother only showed up.
then we go to somewhere else eat our dinner.
then when finishing dinner, my mind was thinking, thank god..finish liao can go back ipoh liao...yes!
however i was frustrated when my friend say he leave something in his genting klang house, need to go back to take it. then after dinner, when go back my friend's brother's house, after waiting them to pack their stuff, is around 9pm. then we we go back to genting klang. i was shock when his brother driving 140 at mr2.(during that time i didn travel much and i still a soft driver)
when reach genting klang..we wait wait wait..finally my friend done it.
but is already around 11p.m.
then we start driving back ipoh taking highway
as usual, they drive 140(which i usually driver this speed when at highway), scary all the way back. when reach ipoh, it was 12.30am..i was shock to know that we just use 1 hour and a half to go back ipoh.(coz previously i got send a message to my mum to tell her i'm just went into highway at 11pm)to avoid being question so much by my mum, i ask my friend to go out yam cha...then we go out yamcha...also call other friends...yamcha until 2pm something then we go back..
i go back with my other friend who live near my house..then when i reach home, then i can tell lie, that we took 2 hour something to reach ipoh and go out yamcha to avoid question and being worried..that day was so tired, ask u can know that i from melati utama to kelana jaya, then go to my friend house, don know where, then wait wait wait,6 hours later then go out back to genting klang(so frustrated as we going back genting klang coz we go there to wait wait)then go back ipoh then yamcha until 2am...
the next day, as if it was following my plan, i should be going back kl that sunday with my brother's car.
suddenly that day in the morning my brother tell me, hi dude, i'm going back kl 2day, zzzz,frustrated again..then that days, during evening 5pm i and my brother go back, 1st we go teluk intan 1st to fetch his gf, then only go back kl, i sit in the car for 3 hour plus only reach kl.
and it is still within inside a 24 hours, i had travel around kl then go back ipoh and go back kl in less then 24 hours..
can u imagine how boring and tired that kind of feeling.
but is a good experience, to experience what kind of spirit it need to travel around.

the next rememberable is last semester, semester 3 year 2, going to kampar with ah zheng them to find house.
is a saturday. that day i wake up 9am, go wangsa maju eat my breakfast with kc, plan to start going at 10.15...
wait wait wait..now i remember..
at 1st we plan to go kampar then go ipoh sleep a nite at my house then go back kl the next morning.me, zheng, kc and joshua say ON.then i say saturday morning we 10.15am start going.
that saturday morning, 8.45am, ah zheng tell me cannot, not on, cannot sleep overnite, sorry, cannot, my dad don allow.i was shock and frustrated, to move on with this travel, i have to ask evey1 2day go 2day back ok? in a morning 8.45 where i had so little time, but after calling, luckily can solve it, the plan changed. then ah zheng only say ok..
when i had lunch, zheng suppost to fetch joshua as both of them live at gombak.
10.30am, zheng finally arrived, late as usual, the funny thing is joshua is not with him, ask him, where is joshua?ops...4geted about him...again frustrated...(if u read my blog during the pass, i got written this event as part my frustration or days)
then i say nvr mind, we go and fetch him...after fetch him, pass the highway toll, it was already 11am liao..late as usual which i hate it.
reach kampar at 1pm..then go see the hostel, the house so new and so nice, but the price is so nice too...then we meet khai ming there where he and his family and a friend go with a car.(khai ming 1st vert excited with the utar and hostel, say on liao, 12 take the hostel,very on,i love it. the next day monday, say don 1 liao, 12 study at some university at kl)
after looking at hostel, then we go to eat, go walking around at the kampar city, finally we go eat pizzahut..zzzzzzz...but i like it
then go to utar, walk around ask around, it was already 5pm
then we go back ipoh..most of them tired after visiting all kinds of hostel(5 types) and search house around, but i have to drive...at ipoh, i put some of my stuff then go out eat with my family and friend..after dinner, go back home have a bath then go back kl..it was already 10pm liao that time...and it is raining when i at highway.
when reach my genting klang, it was 1am liao after dropping my friend back to their house.
that the end of rhe 1 day travel, so many unpredicted event occur.
another travel is not 1 day travel or what,is have u ever didn't sleep the entire nite and drive back to kl in that morning?
that day is friday, semester 3 year 2.
thursday nite, that the time we plan to go back kl with my irc friend.
bcoz of prospect, we delay, coz got prospect at 2AM.talk talk talk talk until 6am only finish, i was like, dam god, dam tired...then go back my friend house pack their stuff which they didn pack it coz his friend lock the house liao they cannot go in, we not me but them go back kl with empty hand with all the clothes and stuff leave back at kampar.pass the highway toll at 6.55am...reach kl at 8.20am...1st time experience traffic jam in the morning. i plan to go to skool but i was too tired liao..to be honest, i barely can open my eyes when i drive, but somehow i manage to open my eyes all the times.
and just now, 8.30pm, i just go to kampar myself, reach there around 9.10pm..then talk with my irc friends, then 11.45pm, then reach ipoh at 12.02am. my 2nd fastest time.my fastest is come back from kl to kampar to ipoh with david, not mistaken is only 12-13 minutes.
skool gonna open soon at utar, 25th orientation days, gonna meet new friend, probably gonna bring them to ipoh play around then go kl if possible, or penang too if we(i and new friends) went to kl liao..
this time, i need to be a leaders. to lead, i will make my 2 year university life and happiest time in my skooling time..eventhough i at kampar..yes i can!y i can? coz i been through a lot of things, can't write it out, is too much...lot of problem happen in my life, not happiness in my pass, even think of suicide at my primary skool time, however, until 2 day, i still think my form 5v1 days is the best days of my life..i love it so much, it will nvr be erased. bcoz of 5v1, it change me.my college life was ok, but i didn expect much, but luckily still got dac group 1, i can go a lots of place, without them, i don know how to go 1u, kepong, gombak, mid valley, sunway, penang, all many more place and road i had known, i'm not kl people, i'm born in ipoh, i live 2 year only in kl, then now goona have 2 year in kampar, after that is kl or Singapore or other country. i will be difference, i want to change, to change myself and change my environment. change it to a better and adventure life, so adventure until i 4get 5v1 if possible..the end..

time go so fast...just i recall back that when i want to write a blog, it was thursday when i coming back ipoh from KL, but 2day, monday only free or remember to write..
this semester holiday is quite boring...probably coz i had all the fun b4 the holiday coz i was driving around kl to go anywhere and play anywhere, that y until 2day i still no $, coz last time play until overdraft..luckily this month finally paid back all the debts i created in the first place. didn go to A school for a month liao...
nvr talk to my formal classmate for almost a month liao except keng keat who always ask me send song and jia wen coz last time borrow a book from her but eventually didn coz mistaken the identity of the book. but is not my problem, just helping some1 to get a book only.
2day is a good day. y i say so?coz total our judge finally have the ball to rules NIZAR as the legitimate MB, meaning the zambry is the illegal mb and have ask zambry and his exco to vacate their government post with immediate effect...for the 1st time a judge give a favor to the opposition after so many controversial cases which goes to BN way...
what i want to write actually???yeah...actually the 1st time i say no to my friend, NO!don 12 go clubbing, NO!i don 12 stay with u all...haha...it really need the guts to say those word to yr friend and i just did it last thursday.
no to clubbing. y?coz really no $ and too troublesome to go as i don have car and they all depend me only with the car which i need to borrow.
no to staying with u all. y? coz u all really irresponsible, after some many occation/ problem, u all never solve it, all need me to deal with it..i had enough. if i were to live with them, i will be the not happiest man in the house. so i choose to stay outside alone even though i say i live with my friend which i lie.
until 2day,11 may 2009, just 2 week away from my UTAR class start, i haven't find a place to stay...but i still calm, y? coz i had said in my last post that my friend had reserved a room to me if i don't have the place to stay..
that god i got this kind of friend, not THEM who always give me trouble.

didn't go out with friends when i went back ipoh from kl, still everyday stay at home play game and serve internet. having a very lonely life, just like when i was form 4. everyday sit at the same old chair and table as it is with current situation, dreaming, but 2day i got my own pc to entertain myself.
talking about prima, it was a very unpleasant leaving prima. as i had totally pay RM90 for the access card replacement. coz last time when i replace a new one i cut the wrong access card..to be really honest, i hate prima from the 1st day i live, to be honest, the best thing about the prima was there was a free car park to me and i have a good roommate, without this 2, i already leave prima a long time.

just give the RM500 deposit to utar, then this 25 may will be the orientation day, hopefully i can meet some outgoing friends, or else i just have to be the event maker, coz i want to have to a great university student life. i want to have a adventure and remember able student life just like when i was form 5...u will know when i post picture in friendster and facebook..speaking of friendster, i didn post any picture at least haft year liao..when school life start again, u will see a rebranding goh thuan yung.
2moro go kampar search for room...now play sudden attack.

after a stressful semester where i have to busying around to solve the renting house issue where the house leader don't care at all whereby need me to call ask call ask call ask and find a house in kampar where i need to call ask call ask those people about the house condition, location and etc but at the end the kampar house owner don't 12 rent to us bcoz my future housemate burst up with the owner and i lost my access card twice....is been a terrible holiday to me....some more the MLM people try to pressuring me to do my job, nothing i running into my way...some more arsenal lose to manchester united 3-1 at admirate stadium....wtf...
very cham....
however even though there is lots of thing not going my way...i do manage to find some activities to make my life a bit more happier..
hm...let me recall back what i done last week....
mon-4get
tuesday-go out yamcha with my friend..finally see my ex classmate/current most socialist friend..yamcha yamcha from greentown old town to cempaka old town..talk talk talk until 3am...wtf...
wed-as usual
thursday-go to sing k at nite 10pm until 2am,,,then go yamcha until 3am
friday-wait up at 9am to play badminton with my bro and firned...just sleep 4 hours only then need to exercise without eating braekffast
sat-as usualy..lazy to type
sun-go to kl with my bro
mon-go buy a new access card which i previously lost it and go low yat but some stuff and play pool and yam cha
tuesday-go timesquare and lost my access card,then at nite have meeting with MLm people and talk with rank 001 irc member.
wed-boring and nothing to do...so write blog.but later will go play pool

so boring and cham actually, no car, anywhere also cannot go, now even access card lost, 12 go out my condo also susah..luckily i got bring laptop come to kl, otherwise i will be like locked in a jail..my roommate sudah balik kampung liao...
so i very alone...
just wish time can go more faster...i don 12 bother so many problem...tired of facing problem..just like renting house issue at kampar, actually i don need to worry, coz if i can't find a house, my buddy(ex classmate) sure got a room for me to stay, but since my kl friend kc ah zheng insist to stay together, then find a house lo...but they never really care it much...ask them when to go kampar look for house?don noe don noe...2day finally ask them confirm liao...but i don't think that we gonna find a house this friday when we go kampar...coz they don't care...but don't worry,i at least sure got 1 house to stay..
what to do?so boring
go kampar is not what i really want, actually when i finihs my form 5 i didn't plan to study liao de...coz i really don't like to study...some how because my parent keep telling study study...for no reason i choose accounting...until 2day, to be honest, actually i love economic, hate account, boring...but what ever, i still can score it...
to be honest, i really nvr really think of scoring A in college exam...coz i really a terrible student in my pass...too bad my classmate is not my ex classmate, otherwise u will shock to see the big different i had changed...
until today, i really thankful to god and myself that i dare to make a diffrence by choosing to study kl instead all my friend go kampar...it really changed my life...even now i facing lots of problem...i will never give up, because if dare to change, there is no impossible..u don change,notrhing gonna change, u want better,then improve yrself, change,just hopping to have a better life...