Ah Goh

This song recall back some old memory.


lyrics version.

Is been a long time didn't write blog already.
Now is year 3 semester 1 already, last semester was just moderate, but CGPA dropped slightly.

Got a free netbook from streamyx after registering streamyx uni cool pack. A cacat netbook I can say, it slow, is small. But is really portable to bring anywhere.

My brother now living with me in the same house but different room.

My phone's screen have dead pixels, yet I haven't fix it. Haiz... Lazy to take it to repair.

Sometimes, I feel the world is very unfair. Although I have to accept things will always not going in our ways, but sometimes it really hard to swallow the truth.

Is been half years after break off. My feeling now???
Hard to tell, I do get back my ordinary life, but some how my heart will feel lonely. All the girls I like to be with are all got bf already. Haiz.. sad... Even I meet a girls which I really interested also in relationship with someone already few days ago.

My feeling toward ex?? hard to express. My mind sometimes will think of her coming back to my life, but I know I will not, I should not consider or accept someone who cheated their lovers. Sometimes, I still thinking why she would leave me, did I did something wrong? The bottle of stars is still with me. I will throw away one day. When memories flash back, I loss count how many time I had beg her to come back my life even I found out she cheated me. But I can assure there will be no next time already.

Getting the feeling of where I started in the beginning. Continue living my life to get the most out of everything and keep waiting the right one to come or waiting myself to fall in love with someone. In the meant time, keep listening songs, enjoy when I can or emo when I'm lonely in the room coz I always wanted to share my life with my the one I love and the one who love me. Will it really happen? I don't know.

My 1st relationship, was a really hurt. Why must I always with a girl I love but never be with them? College was like that, now university also like this, but this time even worst. Last time was a simple I don't love you. Now, all kinds of Lie!!!! All the things she done behind me, I still feel the hurt thinking back now, sleep with another guy behind me. Accuse me back I was third party. Cheated me but ask me to keep secret. Can't believe she turn into such a girl. I was angry and hurt to an extent, till now, everytime i recall back, I still feel the hurt. I feel in love with total of 5 girls till now, 1st one was form 1, 2nd and 3rd was form 5, 4th was at college, 5th was her.(excluded interested)
CAN YOU GET AWAY FROM MY LIFE??? I hate to see u appearing in my life. U lie me, even ask me to wait u even u don't even mean it and talk like u never say those words!

I should forget her, but the impact is so much.
When I will really stop mentioning about her? I don't know. She keep appearing in school. I don't wish her luck anymore. I wish she would just withdraw. Go go back to yr lovely Kang, go back SP.

Hsiz. Still got 1 year of student life. Must fully utilize it before graduate.
I would really love to love someone, but as for now, I really don't have the feel to love anyone. I can go out with other girls with one on one to tackle the girls, but I really can't create the love feeling and some of them also got bf.

If I have a good roommate or housemate, maybe I can forget or don't emo easily. I really miss my ex roommate, thx to him, I really have a good college life(of coz ah zheng them too). Honestly, I'm really lonely all the time in the house. Nobody to talk to. Feel so lonely. I just need someone.