Tomorrow gonna have exam at 2p.m. Don't know why now I don't have mood to study.
I'm getting lazy compare previously when i was at TARC, probably there is no motivation. During TARC life, i was aiming at least 3.65 and I manage do make it.
Now at UTAR, at first I was aiming 3.5 at least, but after knowing my coursework marks, and a totally sure no A in my AFA(main accounting paper)for the first time since last time during secondary school. Really demotivated... All my coursework didn't done quite fine, 2/6 subject I manage to get A in coursework, English and Management Principle, the easiest paper for this semester.
Suddenly feel that my 3.5 CGPA is so far away from me and this is the first semester only,how am i gonna continue to fight on with the remaining 5 semester. Maybe I shouldn't aim that high, is unrealistic already if i still think I can take it.
Maybe I could. I shall see what happen for next semester, I should not judge my first semester as the entire 2 years result. But a good beginning is a half accomplishment for success as chinese always says. Even I fail to get 3.5, it doesn't really matter. I'm getting really feed up with studying. What so important about study? I get 4 or 3.5 or 3 so what? Does it really matter? Does it really relevant in our future?
Suddenly keep thinking what will be my life be if I continuing in TARC for advanced diploma, will I still be that good as previously at Diploma? What is my life will be?
What kind of friend do I hang out with?
I'm changing. I'm not going to be same as I am during in my diploma life. Different environment, changing my personality. Good or bad I still not sure, but we must always look forward. SO, Continue to study, study smart! Must get 3.5!
You gotta swim
Swim for your life
Swim for the music
That saves you
When you're not so sure you'll survive
You gotta swim
Swim when it hurts
The whole world is watching
You haven't come this far
To fall off the earth
The currents will pull you
Away from your love
Just keep your head above
I found a tidal wave
Begging to tear down the door
Memories like bullets
They fired at me from a gun
Cracking me open now
I swim to brighter days
In spite of the absence of sun
Choking on salt water
I'm not giving in
Swim
You gotta swim
Tonight's the moment
Swim for your family
Your mothers your sisters
Your brothers yours friends
You gonna swim
For wars without cause
Swim for these lost politicians
Who don't see their greed is a flaw
The current will pull us
Away from our love
Just keep your head above
I found a tidal wave
Begging to tear down the door
Memories like bullets
They fired at me from a gun
Cracking me open now
I swim to brighter days
In spite of the absence of sun
Choking on salt water
I'm not giving in
I'm not giving in
Swim
You gotta swim
Swim gotta in the dark
There's an ocean to drift in
Feel the tides shifting away from this war
Yeah you gotta swim
Don't let yourself sink
Just follow the horizon
I promise it's not as far as you think
Currents will drag use away from our love
Just keep your head above
Just keep your head above
Swim
Just keep your head above
Swim
Just keep your head above
Swim
When i see your smile
Tears run down my face I can't replace
And now that I'm strong I have figured out
How this world turns cold and it breaks through my soul
And I know I'll find deep inside me I can be the one
I will never let you fall
I'll stand up with you forever
I'll be there for you through it all
Even if saving you sends me to heaven
It's okay. It's okay. It's okay.
Seasons are changing and waves are crashing
And stars are falling all for us
Days grow longer and nights grow shorter
I can show you I'll be the one
I will never let you fall(let you fall)
I'll stand up with you forever
I'll be there for you through it all(through it all)
Even if saving you sends me to heaven
Cause you're my, you're my, my, my true love, my whole heart
Please don't throw that away
cause I'm here for you
Please don't walk away and
Please tell me you'll stay stay
Use me as you will
Pull my strings just for a thrill
And I know I'll be okay
Though my skies are turning gray
I will never let you fall
I'll stand up with you forever
I'll be there for you through it all
Even if saving you sends me to heaven
I will never let you fall
I'll stand up with you forever
I'll be there for you through it all
Even if saving you send me to heaven....
Dam...1 semester goes so fast. gonna holiday already. this time my exam didn't very badly, even the result is not out, i haven't finish my exam yet. but i know i did very badly. Look like i am gonna have little A in my result, my most confidence paper AFA can't even get A. so disappointed. this holiday gonna go back KL^^. Happy!
Long time didn't drive at KL, didn't travel around, stuck at this boring place Kampar, hopefully i can meet up all my old friends at KL, i want to go IU, Mid valley, and lots of place.
I'm getting tired of studying already, sometimes i keep thinking of i'm keep on studying so hard, does it really help me in future? being excellent in study gonna mean excellent in work environment? obviously i don't think so, but i try to lie myself that it is. when i finish this degree program, don't know i still have the strength to continue to finish my remaining 6 CIMA papers. my future is full of dark cloud. I can't predict my future. I can't even predict what will happen this 2 year in degree. She seems 12 continue, but sometimes she seems to be don't want to continue. I really hope i can see her graduate.
Life is so unpredictable, what come around goes around. Must always look forward, don't look back, don't let the past haunt you. the future is in your hand, bringing up the past is just an excuse.