gosh, time just pass so fast. Can't believe i'm going to finish my degree.
at first, never thought finishing diploma is that fast, but this time, is even faster.
this is the last semester. I still got 3 months of student life and everything will change. Still confuse.
should I work?
if yes, work in KL? Ipoh? Singapore? China?
work as? assistant accountant? tutor?
should I continue study?
Master? Which university? ACCA? CIMA? CPA? (Although highly CIMA)
full of uncertainty in my mind.
and honestly, I must sort it out fast.
decision need to be make.
my current blueprint:
go KL work. Work for 6 or 9 or 12 months (depending how much I can save), continue master, take part time, at that point, resign and become tutor in university too.
after finishing my master, time to move on, take my CIMA, and enter corporate world.
that is just my initial thought, things can change drastically.
I'm not a lazy guy who don't like to work, in fact, quite hardworking to be honest. for instant, I just can't stand some people, I give u assistant almost everything, give u a more than enough time frame to finish the job, yet, you keep on delaying it.
2 weeks of delay and it going to be delay until the very last minute.
JIT? No. Is lack of time management. Students should be playful and don't need to worry about tutorial work and assignment? Hell no, you should allocate time for study(where u should emphasize it as priority) and play.
I always believe, in life, 50% of sadness and 50% happiness. Mean we suffer 50% in our life and 50% is the enjoyment. I don't believe anyone will enjoy/happy all the time and I do believe some people suffer more than having happiness though. xD
Well, what I mean is, do your job properly. If cincai? okay la in social life, but when it come to assignment or RMP, u need seriousness. Is not about meeting the requirement, is about quality. Not the quality of your work, but the quality in you.
well, another insomnia night, go play DOTA then sleep.
God please guide me.
Life can be so unpredictable nowadays. Today I heard a news from my good friend.
when I heard it, i was wtf, should I smile? should I ignore? should I angry?
Really no idea at all.
when u never encounter a thing before, U won't really know how to react during 1st time.
Yesterday, I was invited to yum cha, knowingly that my ex will be there, I would have say no, but one of my favorite team was broadcasting live and the sopcast sucks big time, I just say yes for sake for watching my favorite team.
Some people ask
want to write story, but whatever, I'm kinda tired. skip
just now when finish pool, some funny question pass through my brain.
"actually I invite you out le, want to tell you something"
u talk la...
actually, If I want to chase your ex okay? I mean I don't want to break this friendship".
actually I was quite shock. but I went on and say
u want to chase then chase la, why ask me wor
then ask me would I mind...
I was like wtf... I just say, u want to chase then chase. I and her don't have any contact already.
Of course is a boring day. god dam it.
as usual, afternoon wake up, Facebook 1st, go out take away 2 pack of economic rice, one for me, one for my brother. Just facing pc all day long.
As usual, 4.30 go out take dinner back home from my grandmother. Grandmother ask me buy nescafe, toilet roll, sugar. went tesco, don't have sugar. go jusco.
as i taken 3 pack of sugar, as i walking toward the cash counter, a girl keep looking at me. I was like, wtf, do I know u? but suddenly, only recall back she is my cousin sister. I was like OMFG!!!!!!!!!!! of coz it was raining, i wanted to rush back, just few talk, i go pay my stuff liao. Gosh, is like 2 or 3 years didn't saw them. She look beautiful. Me? LOL.. i dressed like some pokai people, long hair, nvr shave my mustache and beard. Haha... really shocked me.
doink doink didn't repond my facebook message, still not reply sms, don't answer my call. I guess I have to give up le. Besides, she told me she have a bf in the 1st place.
seriously, is so bored, dad and mum not at home, when dinner time, is just me and my brother occupying the table only. can u imagine it?
2010 almost end, let me summarize my year:
-break up with my ex, receive call from her bf, so much things happen, i glad i'm moving on..
- get a netbook thx to streamyx.
- android finally is mine.
-fixed become flexi in uTAR, thx for it, i don't need to be same class with my ex.
-go kl clubbing with jesus them, meet moses.
-fail my coursework 1 for BF, how can i forget this?
-and yeah, finally got my own credit card ^^ wohoo...
-been to KL few times, with sue wand, jesus, housemate, on my own 2 or 3 times
-went to Singapore with my mum and brother
-lots of birthday celebration
-i'm starting to play badminton and bought a badminton racket
-i'm addicted to those tech news, forum and blog
-addicted to FB's My Empire
-getting fatter
-last but not least, I'M SINGLE AND AVAILABLE XD
just come back from Kampar. Can't stand the boredom and the food any longer.
Just back at 8pm SHARP and fetch my little brother go out take away some food for him.
Again, boring again. Nothing to do. I wanted to go out now, I want to go KL now, couldn't find any kaki to follow me. How?
Lately really suffering financial meltdown as my bank account fall below 1k now at 8 hundred @@ still got lots of trip for me to go. want to go KL before christmas. If I go KL,i won't be going to the so called class trip, go kl, genting, melaka.
will consider melaka.. if financial visible.
Just now got lots of people talk about shooting star. remind me back the shooting star i saw last year Jun. talk about shooting star, is like a dream, as if it was a really dream come true, as if it was like " see shooting star, make a wish and it will come true" will really come true.
Well, it did come true, but never last that long. talk about shooting star is like a nightmare to me. Bring me some happiness, but bring sadness in the end. A very sad and very horrible ending. Wish I had never started it.
Should I regret? No. I should regret of never trust me instinct only.
Is already one year already. I'm still single. Where is my love? I already very hardworking to know "some" stranger ever since I break up with my ex.
the latest one is, well, okay, i admit it, she is very beautiful. I think I really fell in love with her, I never been so down when someone don't reply me, whenever she don't reply me, i will luan luan think, i will keep refreshing her profile to stay update. I will REALLY NEVER WAKE UP AT 8AM TO FETCH PEOPLE GO TO SCHOOL when i don't need to go school. But she able to make me did it.(don't talk about 8am, 10am i also need to think twice) I really hope she will ask me to fetch her to school.
it really make me go high when she give me muacks in the facebook message.
But I startng to loss faith already, she barely reply my message nowadays. probably one reply from one day.
it really hurt me. tear drop was fallen when i find out she reply her friend post instead of replying me. it was suppose all went well at the beginning. but now is getting colder. Maybe due to exam. Maybe she nvr interested in me.
I don't know.... anywhere, whatever happen, just hope history won't repeat itself.
Saturday just finish the exam.
I must say, i getting relief after finishing the exam.
Honestly, SFM was quite easy when comparing to past year paper and his mid term papers.
coursework get 22/40. I hope only get B is enough already.
i need lift up my CGPA.
Haiz.. Did u know that i'm getting falling in love with u already?? =( it hurt me when u don't reply.. why u always don't reply my message?
Am I worry too much? maybe I am. Maybe u are busying studying, maybe i should not bother you. haiz.. I'm clueless. Give me a sign.
Holidays??? tahu, no money, don't know how to holiday. thought of working. my bank account is decreasing drastically this month. Some more might going to Melaka this coming class trip. Don't know I will go or not.
gosh.
time goes so fast, september going to end already.
things seems like keep changing.
finish every coursework besides the so called moral campaign.
final exam coming soon. our FYP still never touch it at all.
haiz..
lately, I meet another new girl. I was amazed she added me.
at 1st, I was thinking just ignore it, but think again, seeing her same school at ktar.
then i approve it. never thought she is the girl that ask me the venue during the exam.
haha...
but this time, is a bit different. It has a different feel compare to last time.
what feel? I don't know. but i'm going to take my time to sort things out.
why i always meet those girls who are 1 year older than me de le?
sorry for my picture-less blog if anyone is reading.
i'm very lazy to upload it, unless i'm very happy.
if not mistaken, this wed will be our kempem begin. seriously, i don't give a dam about it. get 8/10 or 4/10, i don't care. coz in the end, is either pass or fail, what contribute so much? for my pride?
sorry, i won't waste my pride on this moral subject, especially to utar.
u are so kidding me if u going to think that asking uni student study moral, buat kempem will make them ethical.
seriously, i'm really lonely here, in my house, i never talk with housemate at all.
so silent. everyday open my music to make my life goes on.
without music, is just pure silent.
(thinking....) recalling back my old time, my old roommate, jason, meng cheng, my brother, my old housemate, my ex...
thinking all the things i been through, is a very long way, and is not the normal way.meet lots of people, in the end, i just delete their contact, coz i won't find them at all.
i remember there is a point where i almost turn to Kristian.
hoping there will be changes. Hoping someone will change my life.
gosh.. i think i'm going to sick again.
ulcer come out again... fucking dulan... hate it...
today car kena clam... paid RM20 for it.. fucking dulan...
today the tutor still the same, fucking noob, so noob till an extent he need student to help him to explain it to the student... fucking dulan.....
everyday goes by, i don't know what is my heart is thinking.
lots of things in my mind. and suddenly my ex appear in in msn asking me something.
tired of being class rep, tired of being a leader.
I'm not in a motivated mood to do such a things.
as for now i need to be told to do what.
i'm loss..
have a stupid subject call pendidikan moral, fucking dulan part is we need to do a kempen... wtf.... no idea about it.
SFM, with a fucking sohai lecturer and a super duper sohai tutor.
this sem can say goodbye to my 3.0+ liao..
i'm tired. i'm loss, i'm nobody soul, anyone can simply just take me away, just hope someone can just come take me away.