Getting tired easily lately. Don't know is whether I'm getting older, getting weaker, having health problem or just too busy, don't have enough time to rest which in fact I'm quite busy for the entire month!
Since I have nothing to do, I would like to talk a story about a guy. His name is steven.
Steven is a 22 years old guy, just like most ordinary people, everyday wake up, work, back home, internet, sleep. Keep on repeating.
He do have lots of friends but surprisingly, he doesn't have much of close friends. Most are just the people who he meet on his surrounding environment.
One of his best friend in his secondary school is on New York where he never meet him for years ever since he leave M'sia.
Another best friends who just finish his last exam paper in university, is currently in his hometown, Ipoh which is same as his.
Another arguable best friend, college and university mate, is in KL, but he barely speak to him anymore ever since his confession after finish playing pool.
Steven currently always hang out with his colleague and some of his university friends. Besides that, Steven barely have any contact with his other friends.
Steven favorite sport is badminton. His first started to play badminton at the age of 8 or 9 years old. Surprisingly, at such early age of playing badminton, he did miserably in all the competitions he participated. He 1st competition was during his Form 1 year at secondary school where he lost in the 1st round. He join again during Form 3 and he do achieve some great achievement as his partner was amazingly excellent, but in the end he could only make it to semi final. It was one of his best achievement so far. The last competition he joined was a competition organized by MCMC. He was knock out in the first round.
He was a slow learner but he never give up on continuously improving his badminton skill. Even until today, as a ordinary folk who work from 9am till 6pm(usually until 7 or 8pm), he willing to rush back home which take almost 1 hour and rush to the badminton centre to play. Even with tired mind and body plus occasionally suffering pain at shoulder. He nevertheless continue to play even if he meant to loss the game.
Steven was a guy who is willing to sacrifice anything (mostly his time and money) to ensure he can have a good badminton game. There was once, where need to fetch 3 people at 3 different location plus he need to go to another place to lead his friend to the badminton centre. From his office, rush back to his home, pack his stuff, go fetch friend A at genting klang, fetch B and C and wangsa. after that, he have to drive around to look his friend who is unsure his own location. After 45 minutes of searching. Finally he found his friend. It took 1 and a half hour to fetch and lead his friends to the badminton centre. He never regret it, never.
Currently, steven always play badminton on Tuesday or Friday or even Sunday depending which day he is free.
Like many others, Steven is a big fans of Android. Steven can always spend the entire night reading news or forum about Android after work. Although steven never bought any high end or expensive android phone, he still use his phone extensively.
Currently Steven has a new phone call IDEOS X5 and another one call Wildfire which is still in the factory for repairing purposes. (expect to get it by next monday)
As any ordinary folks, they will probably think that a guy who is so into a phone, know what apps to install, know how to root and so on should able to format his pc easily. Infact, steven STILL don't know how to format his pc.
Steven is a kinda emo person. So sometimes, Steven always recall back the old memories. All the great time he had during his old time. Steven was usually a guy without any high hope. He usually fail his exam during his secondary school.
but ever since he enrolled into TARC, and after reading lots of motivation stories in the newspaper and via online. Slowly, Steven become a very self confident person. Sadly, sometimes Steven can be very arrogant as well as he will openly criticize anyone when things is not according his way. Overall, he was becoming a better person and he dare to dream and achieved most of his goal by getting all the As, knowing the road of KL and increasing his badminton skill too.
After two years in KL, he finished his diploma. Steven have two options. Further with Advanced diploma at TARC or get a degree in UTAR which is located in Kampar.
Before making such decision, steven was once chasing one of his classmate. He was chasing the in "full force". Move in and stay with her (different room, same house). Fetch her to school or bus station and so on. He even went to Genting Highland as well with other housemates. He was very enjoying and thought it was time to confess. But Steven was actually a very shy person. He was just too shy to confess. Steven still remember it was on year 1 semester 3, after finish last paper, Steven tell himself, it was time to confess. Before he confess, he actually secretly read a message on her phone while she was in toilet. He was heart broken to found out that the girl she love was wanting to avoid him. That night, steven spend the entire night keep talking with the girl. and it was very late at night. Steven was running out of topic to talk. but he was very shy to confess. After a while, he confessed, and get rejected. He still remember what is the girl reaction and the sentence "不可以". Steven smile back and say it was okay. and when back to the room and cry.
He wanted to go out and seek for more answers. but think again, he better just sleep.
Next day or the same day, he message and if she was really seriously considered it.
And she say yes. Better be just friend.
Ever since then. Steven barely join his lover's gang anymore. Barely go out shopping with them and dinner or lunch with the gang. During year 2 semester 1, Steven was quickly joined another gang, DAC group 1. And steven's life was instantly changed.
His life was very outgoing. Steven at that time, arguable was having one of his greatest time in his life as a student. (although he personally feel his greatest time as a student was during form 5 in secondary school)
Besides that, after the confession, steven don't go out dinner with his lover anymore. Instead, steven started to have dinner with his roommate(yes, he got roommate at that time and all along he ignored his roommate when chasing the girl).
Things was going very well, they start dinner, da gei, watch movie, and so on. they also helping each other by fetching us other, steven fetch him by car or his roommate fetch him by motor or steven's car. Things run well with both of them.
Until now, steven do occasionally miss his ex roommate(as he was quite lonely with a person staying in a room).
After 1 year, when deciding the decision. There are few factors that influence steven to choose UTAR.
- he can't forget her.
1 year already, steven always stare at his lover, purposely ask her some stuff and
so on. Steven know his heart was still belong to her. He need to stop it.
- he make some enemy with his own classmate.
steven publicly criticize some of his own classmates and some of them dislike him.
(steven do make an apology in his old blog during that time)
- most of his gang (dac group1) was going to utar.
after joining with the group, steven's life was full of memorable stuff. He doesn't
want it to stop just there, he want the journey to continue.
- financial difficulty as his dad prefer him to use ptptn to finance his study
After finish diploma, steven moved to Kampar to further his degree program with one main and important motive, to be with the girl he love and the girl who love him.
To be continue.....
(if i do)
Surprisingly, I'm a 22 year old man. Oh yeah.. great.. I'm getting another year older.
Surprisingly also, this time around I didn't celebrate it by blowing the candles.
So what happen that day?
I'm party rocking? Drunk? Crying? Emo? Doing nothing? hanging out around?
Well, honestly the truth, first of all, I don't really feel like celebrate it. Why?
Nothing special about 22 years old.
I rather "reserve" it and celebrate my birthday with "important" people.
Okay, What happen?
I was working............................................
Morning wake up, pergi work. Work until 3pm something, go to genting klang have a hair cut. Back home have a bath, pergi 1u find sy ling, go sunway find madelyn as well and have a nice dinner at there; Esquire Kitchen.
At there, madelyn at the same time belanja me minum coffee bean as well.
after that, go back home.
That is what happened that day.
I have thx everyone who wish me happy birthday. Really appreciate it. That is why I reply by typing (instead copy and paste) for every single greet.
Honestly, that night i was a bit of emo, u know, as a person who kinda desperate honestly xD, I actually drank a bottle of beer. I wish there was more, but it wasn't. I was alone in the house. Only two bottle of beers, it was consider "precious", so I just drink one bottle only.
okay, time to change a bit of topic. Lets talk about Goh Thuan Yung's financial statement for the month of July and August. xD the university assignment's way
from July 1st till July 21st, total expenses was RM908 compare to this months's RM677; a different of RM231. This can explained by that fact that I was conned RM200 by a taxi driver as I accidentally hit his car (my fault).
Well, judging by the figures, total expenses for meals was RM327 while July was RM294; a discrepant of RM33+RM13 while i can include it as I haven't really pay it; a total of RM46. @@ This can explained by the fact that there was a RM31 for Aug 12th's dinner as well as RM26 for Aug 20th's dinner(was supposedly higher but subsidized by sy ling).
Okay, stop it.
Lately, meet a group of people, hope to know more about them.
Tomorrow going to work. Hope to hear some good news about the ad hoc task for the mcd's receivable amount.
today (friday) wake up, have a strange dream. very strange.
feel quite real, but quite blur, saw someone, holding someone.
feel..... strange, as if i going to fall in love.
out of sudden, alarm clock ring.
bath, eat bread, walk down to ground floor from 8th floor. walk to my car, drive around LRT station to find car park, walk to LRT station, buy ticket, step in LRT, wait, watch. reached, walk to office
Office so quiet. so little people. the most noisy one went outstation to check stock with another colleague and the manager. 2 colleague on leave. basically the ac department left not so many people. so quiet. Don't get use to it.
work until 7.30, beh tahan, chit chat with colleague. talk about UTAR and future career.
go back, do the samething expect from my car straight go GK for dinner.
Movie, then steven corner. then i'm back.
really have a strange feeling.
I would do anything for love~~
I really do....
I won't simply appear there, I won't simply do a thing, every single thing I do, there is a motive behind it.
Sometimes, if necessary, "make" an accident to make it as if it is so real.
If i invite u for dinner/lunch, i cherish our friendship or i want to chase u.
If I constantly message u during night time, I want to chase u.
If i constantly find u in FB and SMS, i really serious with u.
If I write something weird here, is because of u.
If i ask weird question, is because i want to know more about u.
I will do anything for love. I really do and I did.
Will I do it again?
God please me the courage and strength to do so.
and I'm not a gay.
Guess what after 4 years of driving, i really crashed to someone's car, taxi actually.
until now, still got a bit of phobia, scare scare ger feeling. haiz.. loss RM200 to the taxi, i know is not worth that much, but i was in a rush, it was raining, i don't know anything about car, it was morning, nobody answer call. haiz. strange enough, my car seems to be fine.
worked 6 weeks already, can't wait to get my next salary.
besides that, what i want to write is something strange happen to me lately.
I really don't know why i have these "blue" dreams lately, i mean is been consecutive night already. i will suddenly wake up in the middle of morning, around 4 or 5am. Really no idea.
wake up, work eat work eat facebook sleep..
repetitive tasks for weeks already. tried to bring some joy, yum cha, badminton, still, don't feel like really enjoying it. Need some alcohol, but i haven't buy any alcohol yet. When i will drunk again?
and, i haven't eat laksa for sooooooo lonnnnnnngggggg liao.
miss the good foods.
long time didn't update my blog, here i am, writing blog about my life.
sometimes i really curious who is really reading my blog, if any.
work for 2 weeks already. how to describe? hm.... ok lo. normal lo.. just work.
am i tired? who don't get exhausted for working?
environment good? quite.
challenging? not really, but yes for freshie like me xD
learning? yup.
2 weeks in KL, is not the same as previously, but expected. now working guy, not student anymore. Trying to adapt my new environment.
I still keep thinking, did I make the right choice of living alone in a room. Quite boring, especially all the housemates always missing in the house. Think of finding another roommate to come in, but scare later he can't tahan my "music", haha....
plus long time don't have a roommate liao, scare don't get use to it.
My feeling? hm... complicated. u know. everything i write blog, most probably i dam happy or i'm emo, and i'm emo, listening back all the sad songs.
i don't want another dejavu anymore, i really don't want. keep all the fake hope away. I don't want it. Is been a year and a half of single life.
how to describe it? Am i desperate? Yes I am. Honestly, all this long, although i don't have any feel for the ex, but somehow why those memories will come across my mind? meet countless girls, tried to chase some of them, but again, i don't want another dejavu. Why ah? somehow all the girls i'm interested got bf ger le?
Getting tired of it. sometimes, my mum's "u don't want have marriage already?" will pop up in mind, doubting will i ever get marry a woman. I don't want to be single forever.
haiz... trying my best enjoy my life. yes i enjoy my life, somehow, that feeling will come. feeling of loneliness. feeling of without love. i don't think i have any true friend already. maybe got one, still in kampar. Just missing one thing only.
Hello, long time no see.
1st time 1st, i'm graduating in time, finish last semester and pass all subjects but with terrible result, GPA was 2.65 overall CGPA was 2.78
haiz. so so so terrible.
Now worrying about employment, don't know accept which company, applied quite a lot of companies already until i forgotten which company i applied.
so far only Padini called me up for interview, but not quite very interesting coz is not related to accounting, is a retail trainee programme which not related to accounting i guess, but anyway, i will go for interview and check it out, if it has a good prospect, will take the job.
Is very strange, don't know why when I'm drunk or have some alcohol already, I'm starting to feel emo. Feel like needing someone, want to hold someone. Why ah? just like last night, I was actually wanted to find her and hold her and dance with her. But somehow, I guess my principles is stronger than my self greed.
just now in the afternoon i meet a girl, chat a quite long. hehe..
After dinner, i went for steamboat as well, u know what? I actually had my dinner at home already, but why i'm still going for the steamboat? coz the girl i just meet. but in the end quite a bit disappointed coz she was going to jusco with another guy, i assume going for movie? heart was kinda like ouch, sakit.. Whatever fine.
Then after that went to euro house. I say, is a nice place to hang out. Have some beers. And yeah, kit yee, haha.. finally able to see her face to face. I feel she is quite outgoing too. Good to hang around with these people, too bad the girl has to go jusco. haiz...................................................................
Whatever...............................................
and yeah, i'm a bit drunk, but i like it. so i can sleep, hope i won't think so much, but i still think so much.